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This programme contains some scenes
which some viewers may find upsetting
from the start.

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So, this is John, and, er...

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Where's the...the clapperboard?

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Camera, action! Action!

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And Avril is his daughter.

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And you were in real trouble
in the care home

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you were staying in, weren't you?

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I certainly was.

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Talk to me about how you were
feeling

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in the time leading up to
coming in here.

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Well, I was absolutely...

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..full of fear

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at the prospect of living
for several years.

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And I was getting more and more
depressed. Yes.

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Because there didn't seem to be any
light at the end of the tunnel,

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until a certain person came along

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and offered me an alternative,

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which I grabbed with both hands.

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So, the alternative for you then,
I guess, was,

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"Do I see, if I stop the oxygen,
does that mean

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"I'm just going to die
from the lung disease?"

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Was that what was in your mind
at the time? Yes.

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I was being very envious...

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..of people...

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..who were dying

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and were leaving it all behind.

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Do you feel that the way
in which we've used the medicines

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to help you sleep,
do you think that's been effective?

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It's been very effective.

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How do you think things have been in
the last couple of days?

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Absolutely wonderful.

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I have now become...

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..a happier person,

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because I've been getting
what you would call real sleep.

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Sleep which has, today, enabled me
to have a meal,

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which I haven't had in a long time,
and really enjoying it.

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Mm. One of my favourites - chips.

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Egg and chips.
Egg and chips, with vinegar.

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Wonderful.

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The fact that I shall be able
to...die

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..not feeling pain...

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..I find it very...very helpful.

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So, you know that it's really
about you letting go of life?

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Do you understand that one?
Yes. Yes.

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So, there is something about
preparing and then letting go,

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and then you go, rather than me
doing something to make it happen.

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You understand that difference? Yes.

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Thank God for you.

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I don't have any fear of death now.

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The only thing I fear now is life.

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The only thing I'm looking forward
to is...

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..dying a...a happy death. OK.

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That's what I've been praying for,
is a happy death.

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I feel gutted now
that I won't be able to see this!

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AVRIL LAUGHS

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Yeah.

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John had a good Christmas,

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and then he slipped off, um...over
about an 18-hour period.

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Largely, um...asleep
or unconscious.

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So, it was a good letting go.

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And for his daughters,
I think, very meaningful.

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It allowed the whole family to get
to the same place at the same time,

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in terms of,
"This is the end, and it's fine".

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However much we don't
like to think about it,

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dying is something all of us
will one day have to face.

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I'm a doctor, and I specialised
in anaesthesia

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and intensive care medicine.

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And in this programme,

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I want to take a closer look
at the ways we die.

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Despite everything
that medicine can do,

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our lives don't always end
the way we want them to.

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And even though only around 3% of us
say we'd like to die in hospital,

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research suggests that
more than half of us will.

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Death is a certainty,
but until recently,

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medicine invested
precious little effort

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in making sure that we got it right.

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And the vast majority of deaths
aren't sudden or unexpected,

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and so there should be time.

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Time to prepare, time to make sure
that we have a choice

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over how and where it happens.

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I've spent three months
getting to know two institutions

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specialising in end-of-life care.

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I know I'm on a short wicket.

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I have worried about it, but then I
say to myself, "What's the point?"

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On the way, I've met
some inspirational people.

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I want to go out saying,
"She was naughty to the end".

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I've had some of my long-held
beliefs challenged.

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I'm confident now
that I will get there. Yeah.

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And I've been looking for answers
to some of the most difficult

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questions we'll ever have to face.

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Nearly everyone feels better
afterwards

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for having had
these frank conversations.

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When is the right time to stop
aggressive medical treatments?

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I believe it's morally wrong
to waste a dying person's time.

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And one of the easiest ways
of wasting a dying person's time

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is to offer them treatments
which you know jolly well

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are going to make
very little difference.

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What are the alternatives
to dying in hospital?

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I want to be at home when I die.

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Does a better death always
have to mean a shorter life?

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There's quite a lot of evidence
that in some circumstances,

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palliative care even improves
people's quantity of life.

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And what offers
the best quality of life...

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..as we face death?

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Making this film, I made repeated
visits to St Christopher's Hospice

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in South London.

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Here, I met people in
the last days of their lives,

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along with the clinicians
who continued to care for them.

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My name's Rob George,
and I'm medical director

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at St Christopher's Hospice
in London.

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It's very easy in this day and age
to think that dying

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is all about the medicine
and all about the treatments,

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when, in fact, it's not.

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Managing pain, managing symptoms
are not that difficult.

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It's really the person
leaving the life

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that is...the problem in hand.

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St Christopher's Hospice
is a registered charity

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partly funded by the NHS.

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Hi, guys.

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Here, I met with people who
are facing death... Hello, there!

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Hello! Hello, Barbara.
Hi. How are you?

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..like Barbara Elton.

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She has advanced cancer and needs
help dealing with the symptoms.

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The first thing any of us want,
I think, is the pain sorting.

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That is the major priority.

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"Please, please,
please sort out my pain.

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"If you can't get rid of it,
I understand,

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"but just sort it
to the best you can.

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"The best of your ability."

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Which they did, and they did...

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..really, really quickly.

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Until in the end, I was becoming
the sort of pest of the ward.

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# Da-da-da-da-da. #

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All singing, all dancing.
THEY LAUGH

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I was a total nightmare.

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A pest of the ward.

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I know you were really scared
that hospices

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were about being tucked up in bed...
Going in and never going out.

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Never going out. A one-way street.

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But the interesting thing is, you're
planning to go home now, aren't you?

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Yes. Because I haven't given up yet.

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You've still got to face the
prospect that you came in here
and not ER...

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..for a particular reason.

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And that is the reason you are...

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I shouldn't talk loudly, should I?

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You can talk as loud as you like,
love.

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And that is the reason
you are going to die. Mm.

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Now, that has fundamentally changed
everything in my life.

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You're in a ward with...
You're not on your own.

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No, no, no, no.
There are people here.

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So, people around you here
might themselves be dying.

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Has that been a problem for you?

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No. It's just...

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..the natural course of things now.

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It might be me next, tonight.

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It could be me, it could be...

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I hope not, because you
get favourites, don't you?

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It could be Margaret,
it could...it could be any of us,

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but we expect...expect to go.

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Has this always been your attitude
to death and dying?

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I've never given it any thought
before.

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Now that you're here... Facing it.
Yeah.

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One way or the other. Where are you
in your thinking about it now?

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What do I think about it?

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Well, I certainly don't think,
"When?"

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I certainly don't think, "Why?"

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Because that's obvious.

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I has to be thought about.

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Um... And why? I've got a dirty
great lump there which explains.

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SOBS: But I still...

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Come here. Come here.

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Come here, come here.

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BARBARA SOBS UNCONTROLLABLY

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It's fine. It's all right,
it's all right.

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It's all right.
I still don't want to go.

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Well, you're not going anywhere,
apart from home with me.

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Aren't you?
For...for the short-term.

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Yeah? I suppose so, yes.

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Yeah? So, you're coming home,
aren't you?

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Yes, and I'm so embarrassed.

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Please don't be embarrassed.
Don't be silly.

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You're all right.

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The majority of deaths
are relatively straightforward.

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They're not sudden and dramatic
and filled with horror.

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It's about the biography,
not the biology.

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By and large, once people
have engaged with it

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and understand what's happening,
it's an easy process.

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But it's only an easy process

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if somebody has resolved, er...their
relationships,

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completed their tasks,

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and are thinking
about their preparations,

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they're saying their goodbyes
and their sorrys

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and their thank yous,

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and have decided what kind
of meaning they want to attach

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to the life they've led,

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and whether there's anything
beyond the grave.

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In our acute hospitals
and emergency wards,

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medicine is rightly focused
on how best to try and treat disease

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and cheat death.

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Advances in medicine mean
we're actually quite good at this.

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There's your detail.

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Part of the time,
I work for Kent, Surrey and Sussex

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Helicopter Emergency
Medical Service.

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This job is about bringing the right
care to the severely-injured patient

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as quickly as possible,

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to ensure the best chance
of survival.

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Slide. And we're going to go to
the patient's left, this way.

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And once in the hospital,
this endeavour continues.

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A nice big deep breath.

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MACHINES BEEP

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So, this is our resus bay.

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There are six bays here,

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where we receive the sickest
patients in the hospital.

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They park in this bay over here,
which has everything you really need

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for a bit of life support,
a bit of resuscitation.

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That should cover us.

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That's through the cord and it's
at the incisors at 22, coming out.

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There's not a lot that you can't do
here, with this equipment,

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but just because you can,
it doesn't always mean you should.

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And that's where the decisions get
a little bit complicated at times.

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Doctors, who spend their lives
treating critically-ill patients,

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have a difficult balance to strike,
and it's never easy.

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Nothing is black and white.
It's all shades of grey.

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But when it comes to considering
ourselves as patients,

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it's interesting to ask
what we would want.

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I've gathered some of my colleagues
from intensive care

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to get their thoughts.

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I remember standing
at the end of the bed,

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you know, in intensive care,
looking at a patient,

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thinking about what I would want
if I were in their position.

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That's really hard.

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To what extent have you thought
about that yourself,

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what you would want
for yourself in that situation?

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Well, I've given my husband quite
strict instructions...

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THEY LAUGH
..for what I wouldn't want.

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What are those things?
What are those instructions?

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Er...minimal.
THEY LAUGH

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There's, er... Yeah.

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Minimal? Yeah, to do, yeah.
I've, um...

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Unless there was something
very acutely reversible

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that it was clear why I ended up
in ITU,

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then to...to let me go.

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So, if it was a short, sharp,
reversible illness,

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you're happy to go all-out? Yeah.

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But anything more chronic
or drawn-out... 48 hours, max.

246
00:13:31,640 --> 00:13:33,680
48 hours, max? Yeah.

247
00:13:33,680 --> 00:13:35,040
I'm scared of dying.

248
00:13:35,040 --> 00:13:37,320
I don't want to be in pain,
I don't want to suffer.

249
00:13:37,320 --> 00:13:38,600
I want it to be quick.

250
00:13:38,600 --> 00:13:41,800
I would not want to undergo
a prolonged period

251
00:13:41,800 --> 00:13:44,680
of unpleasant intervention
on intensive care

252
00:13:44,680 --> 00:13:47,720
unless there was
a reasonable expectation

253
00:13:47,720 --> 00:13:51,480
that I could get back to something
at least approaching

254
00:13:51,480 --> 00:13:55,640
the sort of lifestyle that I had
before I went into hospital.

255
00:13:55,640 --> 00:13:59,160
You go into this profession
to make people better.

256
00:13:59,160 --> 00:14:03,160
That's the sort of real reason
you want to go into looking after
people.

257
00:14:03,160 --> 00:14:07,120
And people dying, almost, for me,

258
00:14:07,120 --> 00:14:09,800
it took a long time to resolve
in my mind

259
00:14:09,800 --> 00:14:14,360
that a patient passing away
wasn't a failure.

260
00:14:14,360 --> 00:14:17,560
Doctors who want to do good often
think that the good being done

261
00:14:17,560 --> 00:14:19,520
is by doing something.

262
00:14:19,520 --> 00:14:23,480
And in effect,
they're subjecting us all to death

263
00:14:23,480 --> 00:14:25,400
by a thousand cuts.

264
00:14:25,400 --> 00:14:27,840
Because we are all dying,

265
00:14:27,840 --> 00:14:29,560
we are all going to die,

266
00:14:29,560 --> 00:14:34,000
and the question is whether or not
medicine is going to help or hinder

267
00:14:34,000 --> 00:14:36,920
the quality of that passing.

268
00:14:36,920 --> 00:14:39,840
Just to have treatments
because they're available

269
00:14:39,840 --> 00:14:43,160
can end up being the worst
of all worlds.

270
00:14:44,600 --> 00:14:47,960
But stopping treatments
doesn't have to mean giving up.

271
00:14:47,960 --> 00:14:51,400
There's a whole field of medicine
with doctors who are experts

272
00:14:51,400 --> 00:14:54,120
at helping people
at the end of life.

273
00:14:54,120 --> 00:14:56,400
It's called palliative care.

274
00:15:01,040 --> 00:15:03,080
The Velindre Hospital in Cardiff
is a trust

275
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with its own dedicated
palliative-care team.

276
00:15:09,680 --> 00:15:13,440
My name is Mark Taubert,
I'm a palliative-care consultant,

277
00:15:13,440 --> 00:15:17,280
and I work in
Velindre Cancer Centre.

278
00:15:17,280 --> 00:15:21,160
Part of palliative care is really
about improving people's symptoms.

279
00:15:21,160 --> 00:15:25,640
Problems like pain, nausea,
vomiting, breathlessness.

280
00:15:25,640 --> 00:15:28,960
So, palliative care is about
improving the situation

281
00:15:28,960 --> 00:15:33,120
for an individual that is faced
with a very frightening prospect.

282
00:15:33,120 --> 00:15:35,840
And we, as a speciality of
palliative care,

283
00:15:35,840 --> 00:15:39,040
have a lot of no-nonsense,
frank conversations

284
00:15:39,040 --> 00:15:41,040
that might revolve around

285
00:15:41,040 --> 00:15:44,120
what expectations
an individual might have

286
00:15:44,120 --> 00:15:48,480
and how they would see themselves
towards the end of life.

287
00:15:48,480 --> 00:15:51,600
But nearly always, when I've sat
in a clinic with someone,

288
00:15:51,600 --> 00:15:53,240
or I've sat on a ward with someone,

289
00:15:53,240 --> 00:15:55,920
and we've had a really deep
and meaningful conversation

290
00:15:55,920 --> 00:15:57,680
about the future, about wishes,
about views,

291
00:15:57,680 --> 00:15:59,920
about certain interventions,

292
00:15:59,920 --> 00:16:02,600
nearly everyone feels better
afterwards

293
00:16:02,600 --> 00:16:05,000
for having had these frank
conversations.

294
00:16:06,440 --> 00:16:09,280
Mark is taking me to see a patient
who has recently discovered

295
00:16:09,280 --> 00:16:11,920
that her illness is terminal,

296
00:16:11,920 --> 00:16:14,960
and she's now faced
with some crucial decisions.

297
00:16:17,320 --> 00:16:20,880
Sandra needs to decide
if she should ask her doctors

298
00:16:20,880 --> 00:16:23,920
to focus on intensive treatment of
her cancer

299
00:16:23,920 --> 00:16:26,160
or on a better quality of life.

300
00:16:26,160 --> 00:16:31,200
I sometimes find it a challenge
bringing up the topic of...

301
00:16:31,640 --> 00:16:33,360
When you're faced with
your own death

302
00:16:33,360 --> 00:16:35,960
and when you're faced with dying,

303
00:16:35,960 --> 00:16:38,320
a lot of people don't want to talk
about that. No.

304
00:16:38,320 --> 00:16:41,040
A lot of people feel very sensitive
and feel it's in bad taste.

305
00:16:41,040 --> 00:16:42,800
It's understandable, because, I
mean,

306
00:16:42,800 --> 00:16:45,440
it's something that none of us
want to hear. Mm.

307
00:16:45,440 --> 00:16:47,280
As you say, it's not easy.

308
00:16:47,280 --> 00:16:50,760
I wasn't going to tell my son
yesterday, but when he came down,

309
00:16:50,760 --> 00:16:54,040
I thought, "Well, I have to tell
him at some time,

310
00:16:54,040 --> 00:16:57,200
"so sooner rather than later,"
so I told him then.

311
00:16:58,440 --> 00:17:00,240
Sandra's cancer is advanced,

312
00:17:00,240 --> 00:17:04,920
and the chemotherapy she's been
having has failed to keep it at bay.

313
00:17:06,840 --> 00:17:09,560
She needs to consider
whether pursuing intensive treatment

314
00:17:09,560 --> 00:17:12,280
is the right thing to do.

315
00:17:12,280 --> 00:17:16,760
One of the things we hope to be able
to do in palliative care,

316
00:17:16,760 --> 00:17:20,120
and when we continue seeing you,
as well,

317
00:17:20,120 --> 00:17:23,040
is help you in some of
the tougher decisions.

318
00:17:23,040 --> 00:17:27,120
Many treatments
and many interventions are on offer,

319
00:17:27,120 --> 00:17:30,760
and some can be very effective
and some can help,

320
00:17:30,760 --> 00:17:33,400
but some come with drawbacks
as well, with side-effects,

321
00:17:33,400 --> 00:17:35,840
and require hospital admissions.

322
00:17:35,840 --> 00:17:39,520
And you may sometimes nearly feel
duty-bound

323
00:17:39,520 --> 00:17:42,760
to go ahead with the treatments,
whatever the cost.

324
00:17:42,760 --> 00:17:46,320
But I think what we'd like to try
and do is

325
00:17:46,320 --> 00:17:49,800
explain the different options,
the pros, the cons,

326
00:17:49,800 --> 00:17:51,280
and then help you make a decision.

327
00:17:51,280 --> 00:17:53,440
That's... Is that further along
the line, or...?

328
00:17:53,440 --> 00:17:55,920
At any point. Any point.
At any point.

329
00:17:55,920 --> 00:17:58,960
And that goes for
chemotherapy treatments,

330
00:17:58,960 --> 00:18:00,640
that goes for radiotherapy
treatments.

331
00:18:00,640 --> 00:18:03,040
We're happy to support
you through all of those,

332
00:18:03,040 --> 00:18:05,200
but equally, sometimes people say,

333
00:18:05,200 --> 00:18:07,880
"Look, I feel awkward
to say this to the doctors,

334
00:18:07,880 --> 00:18:09,560
"but enough is enough and..." Yes.

335
00:18:09,560 --> 00:18:11,560
"..this is one treatment
I don't want to happen.

336
00:18:11,560 --> 00:18:13,600
"I want to refuse this treatment."

337
00:18:13,600 --> 00:18:16,200
And I can do that and still not be,

338
00:18:16,200 --> 00:18:18,680
you know, penalised in any way?

339
00:18:18,680 --> 00:18:20,320
No. No. No, not at all.

340
00:18:20,320 --> 00:18:23,480
If they're not too invasive,
I don't mind trying them,

341
00:18:23,480 --> 00:18:27,840
but if they're very invasive,
and it's sort of, 60/40,

342
00:18:27,840 --> 00:18:29,720
I'd probably say no.

343
00:18:29,720 --> 00:18:31,440
Mm-hm.

344
00:18:31,440 --> 00:18:33,320
Sandra's dilemma is not uncommon,

345
00:18:33,320 --> 00:18:35,560
but for many of us, as doctors,

346
00:18:35,560 --> 00:18:38,600
it's often easier to do
what we know best,

347
00:18:38,600 --> 00:18:41,240
what our core training
was geared towards,

348
00:18:41,240 --> 00:18:45,080
to continue treatment
in pursuit of cure.

349
00:18:45,080 --> 00:18:48,560
In a sense, with the way
that modern medicine is going,

350
00:18:48,560 --> 00:18:51,840
we've got a big problem here
that we're not fixing.

351
00:18:51,840 --> 00:18:54,080
It's very easy to give
the big treatments

352
00:18:54,080 --> 00:18:58,560
and to just slot into this sort of
conveyor belt of big treatments.

353
00:18:58,560 --> 00:19:02,360
Having a conversation about
what might be if you don't have
Treatment A,

354
00:19:02,360 --> 00:19:06,240
but may opt for other approaches,
including palliative care,

355
00:19:06,240 --> 00:19:08,880
is a longer conversation,

356
00:19:08,880 --> 00:19:10,520
it's a more complex conversation.

357
00:19:10,520 --> 00:19:14,680
And that's why, I think,
people nowadays still default
always to Treatment A,

358
00:19:14,680 --> 00:19:18,280
the thing they're used
to prescribing, or giving,
cos it's just easier.

359
00:19:18,280 --> 00:19:22,440
It's always easier, as a clinician,
to do something that feels active,

360
00:19:22,440 --> 00:19:25,880
to feel like you're treating
a patient

361
00:19:25,880 --> 00:19:28,360
for a medical entity actively,

362
00:19:28,360 --> 00:19:31,640
and actually, that point
at which you are being gentler

363
00:19:31,640 --> 00:19:34,040
makes things much more
complicated...

364
00:19:34,040 --> 00:19:36,280
Yes. ..in many dimensions.

365
00:19:36,280 --> 00:19:39,560
And when I say to them that someone
I knew in a similar situation

366
00:19:39,560 --> 00:19:42,560
opted out of all chemotherapy,
opted out of all radiotherapy,

367
00:19:42,560 --> 00:19:45,800
but had good, active palliative care

368
00:19:45,800 --> 00:19:50,480
and had a very comfortable remainder
of their life,

369
00:19:50,480 --> 00:19:52,720
they're often quite surprised.

370
00:19:56,720 --> 00:20:00,040
It's impressive, really, to watch
Mark have a conversation like that

371
00:20:00,040 --> 00:20:03,680
and tackle the issues head-on
without dancing around the subject.

372
00:20:03,680 --> 00:20:06,920
And through that, I think,
he empowers the patients.

373
00:20:06,920 --> 00:20:10,760
He gives some choices, he makes them
understand what they can choose,

374
00:20:10,760 --> 00:20:12,920
and makes them focus on
what's important,

375
00:20:12,920 --> 00:20:17,120
which is the quality, as well as
the quantity of their lives.

376
00:20:18,960 --> 00:20:23,000
So, how well-established
is this approach to care?

377
00:20:23,000 --> 00:20:26,040
I've come to the Cicely Saunders
Institute

378
00:20:26,040 --> 00:20:29,320
to talk to a doctor who specialises
in palliative care,

379
00:20:29,320 --> 00:20:31,720
Dr Katherine Sleeman.

380
00:20:33,360 --> 00:20:36,200
I do remember those times
when we were both at medical school
together.

381
00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:38,440
Just paint me a picture of how much

382
00:20:38,440 --> 00:20:41,000
the art of palliative care
has changed

383
00:20:41,000 --> 00:20:44,520
since you and I finished
medical school 20 years ago.

384
00:20:44,520 --> 00:20:48,120
Looking back, I'm quite ashamed,
actually,

385
00:20:48,120 --> 00:20:52,040
of some of the errors I made
as a junior doctor.

386
00:20:52,040 --> 00:20:54,680
When I left medical school,

387
00:20:54,680 --> 00:20:57,560
I wasn't even aware

388
00:20:57,560 --> 00:21:00,600
that looking after patients
who were dying

389
00:21:00,600 --> 00:21:02,640
was going to be part of my job
as a doctor.

390
00:21:02,640 --> 00:21:05,880
As bizarre as that sounds,
there was just no priority on it.

391
00:21:05,880 --> 00:21:10,880
And nowadays, it's probably only
about 20 hours of teaching

392
00:21:11,080 --> 00:21:13,160
over a five-year
medical-school curriculum.

393
00:21:13,160 --> 00:21:15,960
Which, I think, is not enough.

394
00:21:15,960 --> 00:21:19,080
Medical students are kind of
whisked past

395
00:21:19,080 --> 00:21:23,360
the beds of people dying from
ordinary diseases

396
00:21:23,360 --> 00:21:26,600
in order to see a once-in-a-lifetime
clinical sign.

397
00:21:26,600 --> 00:21:28,800
It's not a rare occurrence
that a junior doctor

398
00:21:28,800 --> 00:21:31,080
will need to look after
someone who's dying.

399
00:21:31,080 --> 00:21:33,400
And remember,
we're not just thinking about

400
00:21:33,400 --> 00:21:35,280
the last hours or days of life.

401
00:21:35,280 --> 00:21:37,840
The average person who dies
in this country

402
00:21:37,840 --> 00:21:42,240
spends around 30 days of their
last year of life in hospital.

403
00:21:42,240 --> 00:21:45,040
They're on cardiology wards
and orthopaedic wards.

404
00:21:45,040 --> 00:21:49,160
The fact is that all doctors
will look after these patients.

405
00:21:49,160 --> 00:21:52,280
It is possible to have
a good death in hospital.

406
00:21:52,280 --> 00:21:55,560
However, that's not where
most people want to be.

407
00:21:55,560 --> 00:21:58,200
But if not there, then where?

408
00:21:58,200 --> 00:22:02,760
# Nellie the elephant packed her
trunk and said goodbye to the circus

409
00:22:02,760 --> 00:22:05,160
# Off she went
with a trumpety-trump

410
00:22:05,160 --> 00:22:07,480
# Trump, trump, trump. #

411
00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:15,920
One place that people can turn to
at the end of their lives

412
00:22:15,920 --> 00:22:17,320
is a hospice.

413
00:22:20,000 --> 00:22:22,600
Visiting St Christopher's
immediately reveals

414
00:22:22,600 --> 00:22:25,760
these places aren't what
we may think they are.

415
00:22:28,200 --> 00:22:30,840
I come once a week.

416
00:22:30,840 --> 00:22:36,000
I have my hair done, my nails cut.

417
00:22:39,520 --> 00:22:43,760
As long as people want to see you,
you're OK.

418
00:22:45,800 --> 00:22:48,240
If they don't, you're stuffed.

419
00:22:50,080 --> 00:22:52,480
I shouldn't have said that,
should I?

420
00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:56,160
I'm still naughty, you see. Yeah.

421
00:22:56,160 --> 00:22:58,560
After all these years.

422
00:22:58,560 --> 00:23:02,640
I want to go out saying,
"She was naughty to the end".

423
00:23:04,800 --> 00:23:07,200
I mean, I don't know what people
think hospices are about,

424
00:23:07,200 --> 00:23:09,720
but essentially speaking,
this is a place for living

425
00:23:09,720 --> 00:23:12,880
and getting the most out of life
that you can.

426
00:23:12,880 --> 00:23:17,200
So, the proposition is that you live
until you die.

427
00:23:17,200 --> 00:23:20,040
So, it's kind of about
concluding lives

428
00:23:20,040 --> 00:23:24,640
and it's getting the maximum
out of what remains.

429
00:23:24,640 --> 00:23:27,560
That's the first thing, isn't it,
that everyone...

430
00:23:27,560 --> 00:23:30,120
You say hospice, and you do
the word-association game,

431
00:23:30,120 --> 00:23:33,480
and the word association
is death and dying. Yeah.

432
00:23:33,480 --> 00:23:36,160
I kind of talk about decision space.

433
00:23:36,160 --> 00:23:40,240
So, I talk about getting
the physical stuff out of the way

434
00:23:40,240 --> 00:23:43,080
so that people can deal
with concluding their lives.

435
00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:45,160
Because dying's not about dying from
a disease,

436
00:23:45,160 --> 00:23:46,920
it's about dying from a life.

437
00:23:46,920 --> 00:23:49,040
The real issue is,

438
00:23:49,040 --> 00:23:52,320
"Can I get meaning
and can I get conclusion

439
00:23:52,320 --> 00:23:55,920
"and can I get resolution
out of this life?"

440
00:23:57,600 --> 00:24:00,560
Here is what we call
the Anniversary Centre.

441
00:24:00,560 --> 00:24:04,400
And so, this is as much for families
and relatives and friends,

442
00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:07,240
as it is for the people
themselves who are dying.

443
00:24:07,240 --> 00:24:08,480
# Gone are the dark...#

444
00:24:08,480 --> 00:24:11,920
Would you like a drink, sir?
A tea would be lovely. Thank you.

445
00:24:13,160 --> 00:24:15,320
# It's going to be a bright
Bright

446
00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:18,920
# Bright, sun-shiny day...#

447
00:24:18,920 --> 00:24:22,520
One of the surprising things
about hospices

448
00:24:22,520 --> 00:24:25,720
is that most of their patients
are outpatients.

449
00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:30,640
We'll let you know when the film
goes out. Thank you.

450
00:24:30,640 --> 00:24:33,080
Probably be next year.

451
00:24:33,080 --> 00:24:36,680
Oh, good grief!
It'd better not be before I'm dead.

452
00:24:36,680 --> 00:24:38,440
INTERVIEWER LAUGHS

453
00:24:38,440 --> 00:24:41,360
You'd better get it out
a bit quicker than that.

454
00:24:45,520 --> 00:24:48,640
People think of hospices
as places to die,

455
00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:51,560
but for Rob, the opposite is true.

456
00:24:51,560 --> 00:24:54,000
For him, they're places to live.

457
00:24:54,000 --> 00:24:56,640
So, if we go down here,

458
00:24:56,640 --> 00:24:59,480
the next thing
that's really important

459
00:24:59,480 --> 00:25:02,880
is to rehabilitate
and re-enable people.

460
00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:06,320
So, it might surprise you to
know that...

461
00:25:06,320 --> 00:25:08,080
There's a gym.

462
00:25:09,200 --> 00:25:11,600
Despite having chronic lung disease,

463
00:25:11,600 --> 00:25:15,000
Michael McGee is determined
to keep himself active.

464
00:25:16,520 --> 00:25:21,480
So, this gymnasium is helping me
gain my breath.

465
00:25:21,480 --> 00:25:23,640
I've got to take it
relatively easily.

466
00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:27,840
I mean, I can't do a four-minute
mile, for example. Um...

467
00:25:29,560 --> 00:25:32,360
I mean, you can see, I'm not going
very fast and I can't go very fast.

468
00:25:34,200 --> 00:25:36,040
I come here on a Wednesday.

469
00:25:36,040 --> 00:25:39,480
First of all, it gives me a bit
of breathing space from my wife.

470
00:25:39,480 --> 00:25:44,440
Secondly, I'm a bit of a pain
being under her feet all the time.

471
00:25:44,440 --> 00:25:48,000
You get a nice meal in there,
all for about a fiver.

472
00:25:48,000 --> 00:25:50,000
A meal and a pud. Not bad.

473
00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:52,280
You also get a glass of wine.

474
00:25:54,280 --> 00:25:57,120
When I think about the future, um...

475
00:25:59,200 --> 00:26:03,080
I know I'm on
a short...short wicket. Mm-hm.

476
00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:05,480
I do... I have worried about it,

477
00:26:05,480 --> 00:26:07,880
but then I say to myself,
"What's the point?"

478
00:26:07,880 --> 00:26:11,520
We've all got to have our end
to our life, but, um...

479
00:26:13,080 --> 00:26:15,200
I suppose I can put a smile
on my face.

480
00:26:16,880 --> 00:26:20,360
There are around 200 hospices
in the UK.

481
00:26:20,360 --> 00:26:24,560
The care and attention they're able
to deliver is clearly excellent.

482
00:26:24,560 --> 00:26:29,440
But improvements in care
usually come at a cost.

483
00:26:29,440 --> 00:26:33,880
In terms of the health economics
of palliative-care provision,

484
00:26:33,880 --> 00:26:36,120
there is now emerging evidence

485
00:26:36,120 --> 00:26:38,480
that palliative care services

486
00:26:38,480 --> 00:26:42,760
are either cost-effective
or cost-neutral.

487
00:26:42,760 --> 00:26:45,920
So, they provide good value
for money.

488
00:26:45,920 --> 00:26:49,400
There's also evidence
that palliative-care provision

489
00:26:49,400 --> 00:26:52,720
early in someone's admission
to hospital

490
00:26:52,720 --> 00:26:55,920
is more cost-effective
than providing it later.

491
00:26:55,920 --> 00:26:58,000
So, people who got
palliative-care input

492
00:26:58,000 --> 00:27:00,560
within a few days of their admission
to hospital

493
00:27:00,560 --> 00:27:03,560
had, overall, much lower costs
than those people

494
00:27:03,560 --> 00:27:06,480
who had palliative care provided
a little bit later.

495
00:27:06,480 --> 00:27:10,880
There's also evidence palliative
care is particularly cost-effective

496
00:27:10,880 --> 00:27:14,080
for people who have multiple
medical conditions.

497
00:27:15,960 --> 00:27:19,840
And so there's a body of research
that suggests that palliative care

498
00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:23,080
might be one of those rare things
in all of medicine

499
00:27:23,080 --> 00:27:26,960
which is both better for our
patients and more cost-effective.

500
00:27:30,200 --> 00:27:32,640
William Willoughby has just spent
time in hospital

501
00:27:32,640 --> 00:27:35,640
before being transferred
to St Christopher's.

502
00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:42,360
It's a different experience,
being in hospital,

503
00:27:42,360 --> 00:27:44,360
than it is in a hospice.

504
00:27:44,360 --> 00:27:45,840
Not that the...

505
00:27:45,840 --> 00:27:50,400
feeling of care was lacking,
necessarily, in the hospital,

506
00:27:50,400 --> 00:27:52,880
but it's far greater here.

507
00:27:52,880 --> 00:27:57,600
There is a sort of understanding
of the needs of the patient.

508
00:27:57,600 --> 00:27:59,840
Whereas in hospital,

509
00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:04,760
I found that everything was
very hectic.

510
00:28:04,760 --> 00:28:08,240
People didn't have enough time,

511
00:28:08,240 --> 00:28:12,240
because there were so many things
going on at once.

512
00:28:12,240 --> 00:28:15,080
The challenge of looking after
people who are dying in hospital

513
00:28:15,080 --> 00:28:17,600
is that hospitals
are essentially there

514
00:28:17,600 --> 00:28:20,240
for the reversing
of reversible disease.

515
00:28:20,240 --> 00:28:25,000
So, when it comes to accepting or
recognising that somebody's dying,

516
00:28:25,000 --> 00:28:28,040
the setting is not quite right.

517
00:28:28,040 --> 00:28:31,760
Our emphasis, the services
that most hospices provide,

518
00:28:31,760 --> 00:28:35,560
is on the life that is being left.

519
00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:38,600
The life that somebody's leaving,

520
00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:40,640
the life they're letting go of,

521
00:28:40,640 --> 00:28:42,880
the life they're completing.

522
00:28:44,320 --> 00:28:48,360
But hospices are still not
where most people want to die.

523
00:28:50,640 --> 00:28:53,680
The majority of us want to spend
the last moments of our lives

524
00:28:53,680 --> 00:28:55,680
in our own homes.

525
00:28:57,000 --> 00:29:00,760
Well, I'm due to go home,

526
00:29:00,760 --> 00:29:03,240
er...in a few days' time.

527
00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:06,320
Er...so...er...

528
00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:10,560
I'll be glad to get back home,
of course.

529
00:29:10,560 --> 00:29:13,680
I've been involved with
St Christopher's for quite a while,

530
00:29:13,680 --> 00:29:17,600
because my wife died two years ago,

531
00:29:17,600 --> 00:29:20,840
and in her closing stages,

532
00:29:20,840 --> 00:29:25,880
we had St Christopher's come in
to give her care.

533
00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:30,080
And they...they were...they were
first class.

534
00:29:30,080 --> 00:29:32,480
They were first class. Yes.

535
00:29:32,480 --> 00:29:35,680
They couldn't have been
more considerate, more gentle,

536
00:29:35,680 --> 00:29:37,680
and they were...they were...

537
00:29:39,080 --> 00:29:42,320
They made it...they made it easy
for her to go.

538
00:29:43,400 --> 00:29:45,480
And she died at home? Yes.

539
00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:49,760
Is that something that was important
to her? Yes. Yes.

540
00:29:49,760 --> 00:29:53,160
And it's going to be something
important to me, if I can make it.

541
00:29:56,200 --> 00:29:58,840
Evidence shows that having
palliative care at home

542
00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:00,960
helps to increase the chances

543
00:30:00,960 --> 00:30:03,160
that you can stay there
until the end.

544
00:30:04,560 --> 00:30:06,600
One of St Christopher's
consultant nurses

545
00:30:06,600 --> 00:30:10,000
who works out in the community
is Nigel Dodds.

546
00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:13,680
Tell me a bit about the lady
that we're going to see now, Nigel.

547
00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:17,080
Brenda is a 71-year-old woman

548
00:30:17,080 --> 00:30:20,600
with, um...metastatic
breast cancer.

549
00:30:20,600 --> 00:30:25,520
She lives with her husband, Max,
in Peckham.

550
00:30:25,920 --> 00:30:30,960
She, um...has ultimately come
to the end of all her treatment

551
00:30:31,520 --> 00:30:35,640
and the plan is just to keep her
at home for as long as possible,

552
00:30:35,640 --> 00:30:38,520
um...keep her as comfortable
as possible.

553
00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:43,560
So, Brenda, obviously, I can see
that you're looking brighter

554
00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:45,360
than when I saw you the last time.
Yes.

555
00:30:45,360 --> 00:30:47,400
And your breathing's better,
as well.

556
00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:49,040
Yeah, a lot better.

557
00:30:49,040 --> 00:30:50,840
And how's your appetite?

558
00:30:50,840 --> 00:30:52,720
Not that great. Right.

559
00:30:52,720 --> 00:30:55,720
I'd like a bit of steak,
but I don't think I could chew it.

560
00:30:55,720 --> 00:30:56,760
NIGEL LAUGHS

561
00:30:57,720 --> 00:31:01,200
When someone first suggested
that the palliative-care team

562
00:31:01,200 --> 00:31:04,080
come and see you,
how did you feel about that?

563
00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:06,680
Did that worry you, or...?
Frightened. Frightened? Yeah.

564
00:31:06,680 --> 00:31:08,840
Because what did you associate us
with?

565
00:31:10,600 --> 00:31:12,600
Death, I suppose. Right.

566
00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:15,560
That is frightening. Yeah.

567
00:31:15,560 --> 00:31:18,720
But do you think that talking
about the things that worry you

568
00:31:18,720 --> 00:31:22,480
has, in some way, helped to make you
feel less worried? Yeah, definitely.

569
00:31:22,480 --> 00:31:24,160
Yeah, definitely. Yeah.

570
00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:28,120
That would be how I see it, anyway.
Yeah.

571
00:31:29,640 --> 00:31:32,480
Brenda, when you were at Guy's and
you saw the doctors and they said,

572
00:31:32,480 --> 00:31:35,760
"Maybe it's time to think
about stopping the treatment,

573
00:31:35,760 --> 00:31:39,080
"stopping the chemotherapy",
what was that like?

574
00:31:39,080 --> 00:31:40,600
A relief.

575
00:31:41,880 --> 00:31:46,720
Because that chemo was making me
feel so, so, so ill.

576
00:31:46,720 --> 00:31:49,040
I was glad to get rid of it.

577
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:51,000
Yeah, it was making me agitated.

578
00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:52,840
Yeah, you were very agitated.

579
00:31:52,840 --> 00:31:56,480
And what was that decision like
to take, to...?

580
00:31:56,480 --> 00:31:59,080
Once I'd made up my mind,
it was all right.

581
00:32:00,560 --> 00:32:02,880
I don't go to bed
and think about it.

582
00:32:02,880 --> 00:32:04,600
Because you were before,
weren't you?

583
00:32:04,600 --> 00:32:06,280
Yeah, terrible. Yeah.

584
00:32:06,280 --> 00:32:09,240
But not now. I don't think about it.

585
00:32:09,240 --> 00:32:13,560
Why do you think you're feeling
differently about your future?

586
00:32:13,560 --> 00:32:16,560
Because I've accepted the fact
that I'm dying. Right.

587
00:32:17,800 --> 00:32:20,040
There's no getting away from it.

588
00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:23,360
You just feel more peaceful
about that.

589
00:32:23,360 --> 00:32:25,520
Yeah, I do feel more peaceful
about it.

590
00:32:25,520 --> 00:32:27,480
Mm-hm. I can see that.

591
00:32:27,480 --> 00:32:29,520
You...you look totally different.

592
00:32:30,760 --> 00:32:33,440
I've had my hair cut.
NIGEL CHUCKLES

593
00:32:33,440 --> 00:32:36,120
He did it yesterday. Yeah.

594
00:32:36,120 --> 00:32:39,320
No, I want to be at home when I die.
Mm.

595
00:32:39,320 --> 00:32:41,160
I don't mind going to your place...

596
00:32:43,720 --> 00:32:45,400
..if you could book me a seat.

597
00:32:45,400 --> 00:32:47,040
THEY CHUCKLE

598
00:32:48,520 --> 00:32:50,280
They make you feel like home,
you know.

599
00:32:52,160 --> 00:32:54,560
A nice place to be.
I never thought it was like that.

600
00:32:56,320 --> 00:32:58,320
It looked like an hotel.
HE CHUCKLES

601
00:32:58,320 --> 00:33:01,280
Would you say you're still managing
to, you know,

602
00:33:01,280 --> 00:33:04,240
find enjoyment in things
from day to day, enjoy yourself?

603
00:33:04,240 --> 00:33:07,560
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, definitely.

604
00:33:08,560 --> 00:33:10,840
I like my telly.

605
00:33:10,840 --> 00:33:14,040
I did used to like reading,
but I can't read now

606
00:33:14,040 --> 00:33:15,640
because I've got cataracts,

607
00:33:15,640 --> 00:33:17,680
but they wouldn't do them,
because I was on chemo.

608
00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:20,560
Is it worth having them done now?

609
00:33:20,560 --> 00:33:23,240
I don't know how long I've got.

610
00:33:23,240 --> 00:33:26,840
So, I don't know. I'll sit and think
about that one this afternoon.

611
00:33:29,080 --> 00:33:33,560
I don't know...if it's worth
the bother.

612
00:33:36,000 --> 00:33:38,280
Home visits like these,
to help with pain control

613
00:33:38,280 --> 00:33:41,680
and other important symptoms,
can have a big impact.

614
00:33:43,000 --> 00:33:46,040
People who receive palliative care
in the community are less likely

615
00:33:46,040 --> 00:33:48,480
to frequently attend
emergency departments.

616
00:33:48,480 --> 00:33:51,840
It can reduce symptoms,
reduce depression,

617
00:33:51,840 --> 00:33:54,320
increase satisfaction with care.

618
00:33:54,320 --> 00:33:57,680
They're more likely to be able
to stay in their own homes
and die at homes.

619
00:33:57,680 --> 00:34:01,960
So, there's really a great wealth
of evidence to show the benefits

620
00:34:01,960 --> 00:34:04,320
in terms of quality of life
for patients.

621
00:34:05,480 --> 00:34:08,920
Most people I meet are
not afraid of being dead,

622
00:34:08,920 --> 00:34:12,120
they're afraid of the dying process.
Mm.

623
00:34:12,120 --> 00:34:15,080
Dying is inevitable for all of us.

624
00:34:15,080 --> 00:34:19,800
I think if it's done badly,
it's...it's really bad.

625
00:34:19,800 --> 00:34:23,160
And the kind of knock-on effect,
the domino effect,

626
00:34:23,160 --> 00:34:28,200
for the people all around the person
who dies, lasts for...

627
00:34:29,040 --> 00:34:31,680
You know, it can last forever,
really.

628
00:34:31,680 --> 00:34:36,720
So, being able to give people
a decent end

629
00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:40,120
feels like a really valuable thing
to do.

630
00:34:43,320 --> 00:34:47,040
As I look more and more at what,
for many people,

631
00:34:47,040 --> 00:34:49,120
is a death by a thousand cuts -

632
00:34:49,120 --> 00:34:51,760
interventions, drugs,

633
00:34:51,760 --> 00:34:54,600
blood tests, IVs,

634
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:57,680
losing hair,

635
00:34:57,680 --> 00:35:01,160
organ failure
as a result of treatments,

636
00:35:01,160 --> 00:35:03,960
what kind of dying is that?

637
00:35:03,960 --> 00:35:05,560
What kind of living is that?

638
00:35:05,560 --> 00:35:07,040
Mm.

639
00:35:07,040 --> 00:35:10,440
Now, you may say, "That's fine,
that's the kind of living I want."

640
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:12,160
OK. OK.

641
00:35:12,160 --> 00:35:14,720
It's very expensive
in one kind of way,

642
00:35:14,720 --> 00:35:17,280
but it's also very expensive

643
00:35:17,280 --> 00:35:20,480
in terms of the life
that you've perhaps denied yourself.

644
00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:24,720
Because in the last six weeks
or three months of life,

645
00:35:24,720 --> 00:35:26,880
you spend half of that time
in a hospital

646
00:35:26,880 --> 00:35:30,320
and the other half of it recovering
from the hospital admissions.

647
00:35:30,320 --> 00:35:32,600
There is an argument to say...

648
00:35:34,040 --> 00:35:38,240
"Maybe I should just enjoy the time
that's left

649
00:35:38,240 --> 00:35:41,720
"and do the things
that make me human...

650
00:35:43,200 --> 00:35:45,400
.."rather than make my blood tests
better".

651
00:35:48,680 --> 00:35:51,200
Palliative care isn't
about death and dying,

652
00:35:51,200 --> 00:35:54,160
it's about helping people live
the best life they can.

653
00:35:54,160 --> 00:35:56,200
And that's all the more important

654
00:35:56,200 --> 00:36:00,240
when chronic illness has to be faced
early in life.

655
00:36:01,520 --> 00:36:04,080
Junior is 26 years old

656
00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:06,440
and suffering from
a neurodegenerative condition

657
00:36:06,440 --> 00:36:11,000
that has left him having to breathe
via tracheostomy.

658
00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:14,640
After two years spent
in rehabilitation and care homes,

659
00:36:14,640 --> 00:36:17,400
he's just moved into his own place.

660
00:36:47,960 --> 00:36:49,360
Yeah.

661
00:36:56,720 --> 00:37:01,360
So if I said to you,
"What's important to you right now?"

662
00:37:03,560 --> 00:37:07,640
So, you've set a goal
of walking more.

663
00:37:10,920 --> 00:37:12,320
Yeah.

664
00:37:21,120 --> 00:37:22,560
Yeah.

665
00:37:22,560 --> 00:37:24,320
Absolutely.

666
00:37:25,560 --> 00:37:28,440
For Junior, it's all about
being able to make his own decisions

667
00:37:28,440 --> 00:37:30,680
about the care he receives.

668
00:37:30,680 --> 00:37:35,760
It's about being in control and not
letting disease dictate his life.

669
00:38:01,760 --> 00:38:05,080
Fundamentally, it's about choice,

670
00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:08,800
and realising that that choice
doesn't mean giving up.

671
00:38:10,200 --> 00:38:14,880
People might think that moving
to a palliative approach

672
00:38:14,880 --> 00:38:18,120
is giving up or is doing nothing,

673
00:38:18,120 --> 00:38:20,840
but, in fact, that's not true.

674
00:38:20,840 --> 00:38:23,240
We need to start realising
that, actually,

675
00:38:23,240 --> 00:38:25,440
palliative care isn't doing nothing,

676
00:38:25,440 --> 00:38:28,520
it is doing something
really important for people

677
00:38:28,520 --> 00:38:31,920
where there are no curative options
left.

678
00:38:31,920 --> 00:38:36,880
If you change the focus of clinical
care away from the numbers

679
00:38:37,840 --> 00:38:40,680
and away from the change
in the scan,

680
00:38:40,680 --> 00:38:43,480
towards what's actually going
to make tomorrow better

681
00:38:43,480 --> 00:38:45,600
or worth hanging around for,

682
00:38:45,600 --> 00:38:48,040
then suddenly
you've turned the kaleidoscope.

683
00:38:48,040 --> 00:38:50,640
You've changed a pattern of broken
glass that's horrible

684
00:38:50,640 --> 00:38:53,680
into something quite beautiful,
potentially.

685
00:38:53,680 --> 00:38:57,000
That says, I guess, palliative care
becomes much more

686
00:38:57,000 --> 00:38:59,360
about the business of living
than it does about dying.

687
00:38:59,360 --> 00:39:00,800
Yeah. Absolutely. Absolutely.

688
00:39:02,040 --> 00:39:05,960
And that's what St Christopher's
is all about.

689
00:39:05,960 --> 00:39:09,160
Above everything else,
it's a celebration of life

690
00:39:09,160 --> 00:39:12,800
and of living that life
to its fullest.

691
00:39:12,800 --> 00:39:15,200
I try to be strong in myself,

692
00:39:15,200 --> 00:39:18,000
but it's the family
who are very stressed.

693
00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:22,480
And so that makes me more stressful.

694
00:39:22,480 --> 00:39:23,960
So, coming here is like an escape.

695
00:39:25,960 --> 00:39:28,480
There's an arts-and-crafts room.

696
00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:31,480
# Leaves, glorious leaves. #

697
00:39:31,480 --> 00:39:33,080
THEY CHUCKLE

698
00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:36,720
Can I do that one? Yeah.

699
00:39:36,720 --> 00:39:38,800
So, you can make your own pattern.

700
00:39:38,800 --> 00:39:41,040
And we could make our own cards.

701
00:39:41,040 --> 00:39:43,520
You'd be quite good at it,
wouldn't you?

702
00:39:43,520 --> 00:39:46,120
OK, I could make a couple
of Christmas cards, couldn't I?

703
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:48,240
I'll be dead by the time
I learn that!

704
00:39:48,240 --> 00:39:49,960
THEY LAUGH

705
00:39:52,000 --> 00:39:56,240
They even offer complementary
therapies, like acupuncture.

706
00:39:56,240 --> 00:39:59,520
My balance, it helps the balance.

707
00:39:59,520 --> 00:40:03,960
I've been losing balance recently.

708
00:40:03,960 --> 00:40:06,800
OK. So, that helps a lot.

709
00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:11,880
And all of this gives people time
and space to relax and reflect.

710
00:40:14,160 --> 00:40:16,320
You could do that, couldn't you? No.

711
00:40:16,320 --> 00:40:18,480
Or something like that.

712
00:40:18,480 --> 00:40:20,440
No, I like this.
You're happy with the clay?

713
00:40:20,440 --> 00:40:22,440
Yeah.

714
00:40:22,440 --> 00:40:25,320
I've learned to accept it.

715
00:40:25,320 --> 00:40:29,000
There's no miracles,
so I just have to take each day

716
00:40:29,000 --> 00:40:32,040
and just be thankful for each day
I'm alive.

717
00:40:32,040 --> 00:40:35,800
I've learned to accept it,
but my sisters and that haven't.

718
00:40:36,960 --> 00:40:38,720
Nice deep breath.

719
00:40:40,520 --> 00:40:42,360
It's stopped.

720
00:40:42,360 --> 00:40:44,520
It's, er...more relaxed now.

721
00:40:44,520 --> 00:40:45,840
Yeah.

722
00:40:45,840 --> 00:40:50,880
I've insisted on getting some
make-up on before I get cremated.

723
00:40:50,920 --> 00:40:52,960
Good for you.

724
00:40:52,960 --> 00:40:56,480
SHE CHUCKLES
I want to go off looking my best.

725
00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:59,640
THEY LAUGH
It's ridiculous, isn't it?!

726
00:41:01,440 --> 00:41:05,080
And being at your best
is what it's all about.

727
00:41:05,080 --> 00:41:08,960
And unlike in hospital,
there's a sense of community

728
00:41:08,960 --> 00:41:12,520
and people with whom you can
share everything.

729
00:41:12,520 --> 00:41:16,280
# Ah, oh, smokestack lightning...#

730
00:41:17,960 --> 00:41:21,160
It's going to be played
at my funeral.

731
00:41:21,160 --> 00:41:24,200
I'm getting a lot of...
It's got to be, "Oh!"

732
00:41:24,200 --> 00:41:25,840
THEY CHUCKLE

733
00:41:25,840 --> 00:41:28,240
It's one piece of music, is it,
Barbara?

734
00:41:28,240 --> 00:41:33,160
No, it's a bit of...a bit of drama
going in, in the coffin...

735
00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:36,400
..and then, stop! And then...

736
00:41:37,840 --> 00:41:40,240
Howlin' Wolf. Howlin' Wolf?

737
00:41:40,240 --> 00:41:43,560
As I go out. Brilliant. Fabulous.

738
00:41:45,160 --> 00:41:47,560
It's got to be loud, hasn't it?
Try it on this piece of paper.

739
00:41:47,560 --> 00:41:49,480
As you're going out.

740
00:41:49,480 --> 00:41:50,840
SHE LAUGHS

741
00:41:50,840 --> 00:41:52,480
No, I'll take... We'll take it off.

742
00:41:52,480 --> 00:41:55,080
No, I don't even want to talk
about it.

743
00:41:57,280 --> 00:41:58,960
Right.

744
00:41:58,960 --> 00:42:01,160
Being here, in this hospice,

745
00:42:01,160 --> 00:42:03,520
it's become abundantly clear

746
00:42:03,520 --> 00:42:07,480
that it's actually, really, truly,

747
00:42:07,480 --> 00:42:11,480
about life and living life
as fully as it can be lived

748
00:42:11,480 --> 00:42:13,240
up until the very last second of it.

749
00:42:13,240 --> 00:42:15,360
Every second of that life
being important.

750
00:42:15,360 --> 00:42:18,280
Yeah. I don't want them
sitting there, going, "Waa!"

751
00:42:19,840 --> 00:42:21,920
This is not the place we expect it
to be.

752
00:42:21,920 --> 00:42:26,960
There's laughter, there's happiness,
there's celebration, um...

753
00:42:27,360 --> 00:42:30,840
And it is a place in which
the team here

754
00:42:30,840 --> 00:42:33,920
do some of the greatest good
that can be done for a patient

755
00:42:33,920 --> 00:42:36,480
at any time in their lives.

756
00:42:36,480 --> 00:42:40,600
It's very clear to me
that palliative care
improves your quality of life,

757
00:42:40,600 --> 00:42:45,280
but what's the evidence
of its impact on quantity of life?

758
00:42:45,280 --> 00:42:48,880
Is there always a trade-off between
living longer and living better?

759
00:42:48,880 --> 00:42:50,520
Bye!

760
00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:57,040
Katherine Sleeman has
been researching how to improve
end-of-life care.

761
00:42:57,480 --> 00:43:01,680
People can worry, um...that
there has to be a trade-off

762
00:43:01,680 --> 00:43:04,960
between quality of life
and quantity of life.

763
00:43:04,960 --> 00:43:07,400
People understand
that palliative care might help

764
00:43:07,400 --> 00:43:09,320
improve their quality of life,

765
00:43:09,320 --> 00:43:12,000
it might improve
their physical symptoms.

766
00:43:13,680 --> 00:43:18,600
But they worry that they will be
giving up on, um...

767
00:43:19,160 --> 00:43:21,800
fancy medical treatments
and therefore,

768
00:43:21,800 --> 00:43:25,720
they will reduce their overall
quantity of life left.

769
00:43:25,720 --> 00:43:28,720
That palliative care will
essentially hasten their deaths.

770
00:43:28,720 --> 00:43:32,120
And there's quite a lot of evidence
coming out now

771
00:43:32,120 --> 00:43:34,760
from randomised controlled trials
that that's not the case.

772
00:43:34,760 --> 00:43:38,480
Yes, palliative care does improve
people's quality of life,

773
00:43:38,480 --> 00:43:41,400
but in some circumstances,
palliative care even improves

774
00:43:41,400 --> 00:43:45,160
people's quantity of life,
so there's no trade-off.

775
00:43:45,160 --> 00:43:47,600
And that's something of a revelation
for me.

776
00:43:47,600 --> 00:43:50,480
Palliative care isn't necessarily
an either/or choice.

777
00:43:50,480 --> 00:43:52,200
I thought it would be.

778
00:43:52,200 --> 00:43:55,960
And it's something Rob George sees
in his hospice, too.

779
00:43:55,960 --> 00:43:58,560
The evidence from early
palliative-care interventions

780
00:43:58,560 --> 00:44:03,480
in things like lung cancer,
er...actually improves prognosis.

781
00:44:03,840 --> 00:44:05,440
I'll say that again.

782
00:44:05,440 --> 00:44:09,160
Early palliative care for people
with certain kinds of cancer

783
00:44:09,160 --> 00:44:12,000
actually improves prognosis.

784
00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:14,400
That is gobsmacking, really,
isn't it? Yeah.

785
00:44:14,400 --> 00:44:16,880
That actually, what outperforms
all of that in the end

786
00:44:16,880 --> 00:44:21,160
is holistic, decent care in the
right setting, with the right focus.

787
00:44:21,160 --> 00:44:23,760
That's absolutely correct.

788
00:44:28,880 --> 00:44:31,680
And this means that the focus
of palliative care

789
00:44:31,680 --> 00:44:33,960
isn't always on the end of life.

790
00:44:33,960 --> 00:44:36,960
For some,
that means high-quality care

791
00:44:36,960 --> 00:44:39,880
over a long period of their lives.

792
00:44:41,560 --> 00:44:43,520
Back in Cardiff
at the Velindre Hospital,

793
00:44:43,520 --> 00:44:46,680
Mark Talbot has invited me
to sit in on a consultation

794
00:44:46,680 --> 00:44:49,560
with a patient he's been seeing
for years.

795
00:44:51,920 --> 00:44:54,800
Alison has advanced bowel cancer.

796
00:44:56,120 --> 00:44:58,720
How important has this part
of your...

797
00:44:58,720 --> 00:45:02,160
I guess your care, your treatment,
been - the palliative care team?

798
00:45:02,160 --> 00:45:06,000
Oh, it's been very important,
um...because it's given me

799
00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:09,720
that opportunity to really talk
about the difficult stuff.

800
00:45:09,720 --> 00:45:13,160
We've had some fairly
frank conversations about death
and dying, haven't we?

801
00:45:13,160 --> 00:45:14,960
Mm. Mm. Um...

802
00:45:14,960 --> 00:45:17,000
And we've talked about your wishes

803
00:45:17,000 --> 00:45:19,240
and what treatments
you would consider.

804
00:45:19,240 --> 00:45:21,960
Yeah. And what treatments
you wouldn't consider.

805
00:45:21,960 --> 00:45:24,080
I'm at the point now
where I've decided

806
00:45:24,080 --> 00:45:26,120
I'm not having any more treatment.

807
00:45:26,120 --> 00:45:29,400
Mm. My second lot of chemotherapy
was horrendous.

808
00:45:29,400 --> 00:45:30,960
Mm-hm. Um...

809
00:45:30,960 --> 00:45:33,480
And, again, I was really poorly.

810
00:45:33,480 --> 00:45:37,400
Um...it was after that, I thought,
"This isn't worth it any more".

811
00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:41,000
Yeah. This, you know, six months
of being completely poorly...

812
00:45:41,000 --> 00:45:46,040
Yes. ..wasn't worth, um...you know,
the amount of time left I had.

813
00:45:46,240 --> 00:45:49,480
Mm-hm. I'd rather be well...

814
00:45:49,480 --> 00:45:51,640
Mm. ..and perhaps have
a shorter period of time...

815
00:45:51,640 --> 00:45:54,400
Mm-hm. ..than be seriously ill
all the time...

816
00:45:54,400 --> 00:45:57,400
Mm. ..and maybe have, you know,
a couple of months extra.

817
00:45:57,400 --> 00:45:59,680
And there's a big event to plan for,
isn't there?

818
00:45:59,680 --> 00:46:01,400
SHE LAUGHS
Yes, my party.

819
00:46:01,400 --> 00:46:04,560
Yeah. My 30th wedding anniversary.

820
00:46:04,560 --> 00:46:06,760
I had a wobble just before
Christmas, saying,

821
00:46:06,760 --> 00:46:08,600
"I don't know
how I'm going to get..."

822
00:46:08,600 --> 00:46:10,960
Oh, I'm just going to cry again.

823
00:46:10,960 --> 00:46:12,840
"..how I'm going to get there." Yes.

824
00:46:12,840 --> 00:46:15,520
Um...it was kind of like,

825
00:46:15,520 --> 00:46:17,920
"What I do to make sure
I get there?" Yes.

826
00:46:17,920 --> 00:46:20,800
But I'm confident now that I will
get there. Yeah.

827
00:46:20,800 --> 00:46:24,280
And we'll have, you know, we'll have
the celebration and, er...

828
00:46:24,280 --> 00:46:26,680
I'll have done everything
that was important to me

829
00:46:26,680 --> 00:46:29,000
over the last four years,
so that's brilliant.

830
00:46:30,520 --> 00:46:34,000
A lot of emotional and physical
energy goes into having treatments

831
00:46:34,000 --> 00:46:36,200
as anything else.

832
00:46:36,200 --> 00:46:38,960
And the investment, physically,

833
00:46:38,960 --> 00:46:43,160
in going through some kind
of treatment does have a cost.

834
00:46:43,160 --> 00:46:46,600
And that may be one of the reasons
why the early involvement

835
00:46:46,600 --> 00:46:51,320
of palliative care appearing to give
us a survival benefit

836
00:46:51,320 --> 00:46:54,280
is that people can invest
that energy

837
00:46:54,280 --> 00:46:56,480
in the things that matter to them.

838
00:46:56,480 --> 00:47:00,200
So, they're not wasting the energy
coping with the treatments,

839
00:47:00,200 --> 00:47:04,280
they're actually using the energy
to complete their lives.

840
00:47:04,280 --> 00:47:06,920
Often, I think in the past,
palliative care was analogised

841
00:47:06,920 --> 00:47:10,320
with the last days and weeks
of life.

842
00:47:10,320 --> 00:47:15,040
And certainly, I think,
over the last 10, 15, even 20 years,

843
00:47:15,040 --> 00:47:18,080
that has very much broadened.

844
00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:21,320
So, there are patients that I have
been seeing for ten years.

845
00:47:21,320 --> 00:47:23,880
Yes, their risk of
a sudden event happening

846
00:47:23,880 --> 00:47:28,840
and their risk of a sudden death
is significant,

847
00:47:28,840 --> 00:47:32,400
but it doesn't mean it's going
to happen at any point
around the corner.

848
00:47:32,400 --> 00:47:35,520
So, it's really a different approach
to try and focus

849
00:47:35,520 --> 00:47:37,240
what is important to the individual.

850
00:47:37,240 --> 00:47:41,920
So, improving people's symptoms
so people can get about,

851
00:47:41,920 --> 00:47:46,440
do their thing and get to
their special moment.

852
00:47:46,440 --> 00:47:50,800
We've had individuals who've wanted
to go to music concerts.

853
00:47:50,800 --> 00:47:53,120
They perhaps want to go to
a football game or rugby game.

854
00:47:53,120 --> 00:47:55,680
And actually, improving
their symptoms and breathlessness

855
00:47:55,680 --> 00:48:00,040
so that they can achieve that
is making a bad situation,

856
00:48:00,040 --> 00:48:02,640
a challenging situation, less bad.

857
00:48:03,840 --> 00:48:06,640
What I've seen over the last few
months has shown me

858
00:48:06,640 --> 00:48:11,360
that we can approach death
in a better and more positive way.

859
00:48:11,360 --> 00:48:13,520
But, even in a perfect world,

860
00:48:13,520 --> 00:48:18,400
the decisions we take
at the end of life are never easy.

861
00:48:18,400 --> 00:48:21,680
Professor John Chester
is a cancer specialist.

862
00:48:21,680 --> 00:48:26,600
And when it comes to the sorts
of decisions that one makes

863
00:48:28,160 --> 00:48:30,960
about when to treat, how to treat,
what to treat...

864
00:48:30,960 --> 00:48:33,920
Yep. ..what is that like?

865
00:48:33,920 --> 00:48:36,360
On the face of it, sometimes,
I guess it must seem like

866
00:48:36,360 --> 00:48:39,080
it should be pretty black and white,
but...

867
00:48:39,080 --> 00:48:40,520
It may seem like that.

868
00:48:40,520 --> 00:48:43,080
Needless to say,
there's more to it than that.

869
00:48:43,080 --> 00:48:46,440
You've got to take into account
the possible benefits which,
in some cases, are huge,

870
00:48:46,440 --> 00:48:48,640
but also the potential costs,

871
00:48:48,640 --> 00:48:52,040
which, in terms of side-effects
and so on, can be significant.

872
00:48:52,040 --> 00:48:56,200
And the great difficulty and,
if you like, the art of my job,

873
00:48:56,200 --> 00:48:57,960
rather than the pure science
of my job,

874
00:48:57,960 --> 00:49:01,280
is around balancing those good
things and bad things.

875
00:49:01,280 --> 00:49:03,480
Not everybody we treat
will be cured.

876
00:49:03,480 --> 00:49:05,840
Not everybody we give
the treatment to

877
00:49:05,840 --> 00:49:08,480
will have the side-effects
and the toxicities of them.

878
00:49:08,480 --> 00:49:12,200
The thing that I think most people
know about cancer therapies

879
00:49:12,200 --> 00:49:16,080
is that they are hard,
that they make you feel awful,

880
00:49:16,080 --> 00:49:21,040
um...and the benefits
sometimes questionable.

881
00:49:21,200 --> 00:49:25,640
If you're talking to me as a
patient, what...what do you say to
me

882
00:49:25,640 --> 00:49:29,920
to make me feel that any of that
is worth going through?

883
00:49:29,920 --> 00:49:32,360
When I discuss treatment
with patients,

884
00:49:32,360 --> 00:49:36,840
I quite often give them a simplified
version of the statistics
that are available,

885
00:49:36,840 --> 00:49:40,240
but I have to say that statistics
apply to groups of people,

886
00:49:40,240 --> 00:49:41,560
not to individual people.

887
00:49:41,560 --> 00:49:45,240
So, I can give them a probability
that the treatment will help them,

888
00:49:45,240 --> 00:49:47,880
but I can't tell them if it will
help them, as an individual.

889
00:49:47,880 --> 00:49:52,040
And some people will take
a certain hope of success

890
00:49:52,040 --> 00:49:53,920
that other people wouldn't.

891
00:49:53,920 --> 00:49:56,120
So, people's treatment decisions
are based on their,

892
00:49:56,120 --> 00:49:58,840
if you like, their own
interpretation of hope.

893
00:50:01,160 --> 00:50:03,800
These are decisions
that Julie Hepburn has faced.

894
00:50:06,640 --> 00:50:09,720
What was that like,
that first meeting,

895
00:50:09,720 --> 00:50:13,760
where they were telling you what
the results of your tests were?

896
00:50:13,760 --> 00:50:15,360
There wasn't a lot of discussion.

897
00:50:15,360 --> 00:50:17,840
It was all sort of quite
well-laid down, I think,

898
00:50:17,840 --> 00:50:21,520
what the treatment was
for my stage of cancer.

899
00:50:21,520 --> 00:50:23,920
It was quite clear, I think
at that point, I would need surgery

900
00:50:23,920 --> 00:50:26,000
and chemotherapy afterwards.

901
00:50:26,000 --> 00:50:29,760
So, it was more information-giving
at that stage.

902
00:50:29,760 --> 00:50:33,280
And what was the worst
of the side-effects for you?

903
00:50:33,280 --> 00:50:35,520
The nausea was the worst thing.

904
00:50:35,520 --> 00:50:37,400
Um...I remember days and days

905
00:50:37,400 --> 00:50:40,600
of sitting in front of plates
of food and thinking,

906
00:50:40,600 --> 00:50:43,640
"I just can't force myself
to eat that".

907
00:50:43,640 --> 00:50:46,280
Or getting up at 6:00 in the
morning, because that was the only
time

908
00:50:46,280 --> 00:50:49,360
that I really felt like eating
some cereal for breakfast.

909
00:50:49,360 --> 00:50:53,600
And it was, um...you know,
it was a bit grim, really.

910
00:50:53,600 --> 00:50:56,880
It's not really living,
it's existing.

911
00:50:56,880 --> 00:51:00,160
But it turns out that Julie
would have been willing
to take a chance on a cure,

912
00:51:00,160 --> 00:51:04,320
even if, to some, that chance
might have seemed quite small.

913
00:51:04,320 --> 00:51:07,520
I had quite a good chance of a cure
- 50%.

914
00:51:07,520 --> 00:51:10,440
Um...you know, even if I'd had
stage four

915
00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:12,280
and it had been a 10% chance,

916
00:51:12,280 --> 00:51:14,920
that would be enough to keep going,
as well.

917
00:51:14,920 --> 00:51:19,360
So 10%, a 10% chance of survival,

918
00:51:19,360 --> 00:51:21,600
you would still have gone ahead
with the chemotherapy?

919
00:51:21,600 --> 00:51:23,640
Yes, I would.

920
00:51:23,640 --> 00:51:25,480
And, John, I mean,
this is something...

921
00:51:25,480 --> 00:51:27,520
You know, it's interesting,
isn't it?

922
00:51:27,520 --> 00:51:31,560
10% might not sound like a lot
to us, I guess, as clinicians,

923
00:51:31,560 --> 00:51:34,120
but for patients like Julie,

924
00:51:34,120 --> 00:51:36,640
that's...that's more than enough
sometimes.

925
00:51:36,640 --> 00:51:37,880
Absolutely.

926
00:51:37,880 --> 00:51:40,680
Both personal experience
and published evidence suggests

927
00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:43,320
that patients will often
take different odds

928
00:51:43,320 --> 00:51:46,400
from what a professional would do.

929
00:51:46,400 --> 00:51:51,320
10% might not be enough for a doctor
to make the same decision.

930
00:51:51,320 --> 00:51:54,360
But for you, still, all of that
has still been worth it?

931
00:51:54,360 --> 00:51:58,200
Oh, yes. Yes.
Because as far as I'm concerned,

932
00:51:58,200 --> 00:52:01,200
I am cured of the bowel cancer.
Mm-hm.

933
00:52:03,040 --> 00:52:05,480
For many like Julie,
a treatment with severe side-effects

934
00:52:05,480 --> 00:52:10,160
is worth it, as long as there
might be some chance of success.

935
00:52:10,160 --> 00:52:14,320
And it shows us that there's
no clearly defined line telling us

936
00:52:14,320 --> 00:52:19,120
when palliative care should start
and other treatments should stop.

937
00:52:19,120 --> 00:52:21,680
What we now realise
is that palliative care works best

938
00:52:21,680 --> 00:52:25,200
when it's provided early
in the course of someone's disease.

939
00:52:25,200 --> 00:52:29,280
So, 30, 40 years ago, actually,
it's true that palliative care

940
00:52:29,280 --> 00:52:33,360
was sort of the bit that happened
after all the medicine had finished.

941
00:52:33,360 --> 00:52:37,000
It was tacked on at the end,
really, when all hope was gone.

942
00:52:37,000 --> 00:52:42,040
But now, um...our recent evidence
from randomised controlled trials

943
00:52:42,280 --> 00:52:45,000
shows that palliative care
works best when it's provided early

944
00:52:45,000 --> 00:52:46,440
and collaboratively.

945
00:52:46,440 --> 00:52:49,000
So it's not either/or,
it's an extra layer of support.

946
00:52:51,880 --> 00:52:54,520
The thing I've learned, I think,
above all, in making this film,

947
00:52:54,520 --> 00:52:57,520
is that every second
really does count.

948
00:52:57,520 --> 00:53:02,560
And in that is the opportunity
to achieve a better death.

949
00:53:02,560 --> 00:53:05,920
To embrace the opportunity
to live your life

950
00:53:05,920 --> 00:53:09,080
right up until the very last moment.

951
00:53:12,920 --> 00:53:14,560
In the Netherlands,

952
00:53:14,560 --> 00:53:18,160
there's a charity that tries to help
people do just that.

953
00:53:22,480 --> 00:53:24,880
The Ambulance Wish Foundation
aims to grant people

954
00:53:24,880 --> 00:53:27,520
one last wish before they die.

955
00:53:33,400 --> 00:53:35,240
We do 2,000 wishes a year.

956
00:53:35,240 --> 00:53:38,520
That's almost five or six a day.

957
00:53:38,520 --> 00:53:42,760
270 volunteers help
terminally-ill patients

958
00:53:42,760 --> 00:53:45,640
to fulfil their last wishes.

959
00:53:45,640 --> 00:53:50,320
Ina Harding has cancer,
which has recently progressed.

960
00:53:50,320 --> 00:53:52,760
And with the help of the charity,

961
00:53:52,760 --> 00:53:55,560
she's making the most of
the time she has left.

962
00:53:57,800 --> 00:54:00,880
The event for my mother is...

963
00:54:30,560 --> 00:54:32,840
These efforts have inspired
charities in the UK

964
00:54:32,840 --> 00:54:34,960
to set up similar services.

965
00:54:36,040 --> 00:54:37,720
People are going to die.

966
00:54:37,720 --> 00:54:42,120
You don't know how long they live
any more, but not so long.

967
00:54:42,120 --> 00:54:47,000
And even then, they can smile and
they can laugh and they have fun.

968
00:54:47,000 --> 00:54:50,240
It is very important
for the patients,

969
00:54:50,240 --> 00:54:53,760
because they can die peacefully.

970
00:54:53,760 --> 00:54:56,200
They let it go, everything's OK.

971
00:54:56,200 --> 00:55:00,160
This is the most important thing
why we do this.

972
00:55:24,360 --> 00:55:27,200
Over the last few months,
the people I've met,

973
00:55:27,200 --> 00:55:30,360
the doctors, nurses, carers
and patients,

974
00:55:30,360 --> 00:55:33,320
have changed the way I will think
about every single patient

975
00:55:33,320 --> 00:55:35,080
I will ever see.

976
00:55:42,200 --> 00:55:47,240
I've seen first-hand the importance
of being able to talk about death.

977
00:55:52,160 --> 00:55:53,800
It allows us to prepare.

978
00:55:53,800 --> 00:55:55,440
It helps us to grieve.

979
00:55:55,440 --> 00:55:58,880
It may lead us to an acceptance
of what is, after all,

980
00:55:58,880 --> 00:56:01,520
inevitable for all of us.

981
00:56:04,160 --> 00:56:08,000
Finding an acceptance of death
can empower us with choice.

982
00:56:08,000 --> 00:56:09,880
Allow us to stay in control

983
00:56:09,880 --> 00:56:14,280
and reclaim the narrative
of our lives right to the end.

984
00:56:14,280 --> 00:56:16,120
To die a better death.

985
00:56:19,880 --> 00:56:21,840
In the end, it's about choices,

986
00:56:21,840 --> 00:56:24,040
and there's no right or wrong
answer.

987
00:56:24,040 --> 00:56:26,320
It's about what's important to you

988
00:56:26,320 --> 00:56:29,080
right up until the last moment
of your life.

989
00:56:29,080 --> 00:56:31,120
No matter how long or short
your life is,

990
00:56:31,120 --> 00:56:33,040
there will be decisions to make.

991
00:56:33,040 --> 00:56:35,640
Decisions that will affect
every moment of your life.

992
00:56:35,640 --> 00:56:37,400
And I can't help but think

993
00:56:37,400 --> 00:56:40,720
that we'll all make better,
informed decisions

994
00:56:40,720 --> 00:56:43,520
if we start having
those conversations earlier.

995
00:56:45,200 --> 00:56:48,840
Ina ends her day with a visit
to her grandchildren.

996
00:57:19,960 --> 00:57:22,520
It's been almost a year
since Alison decided

997
00:57:22,520 --> 00:57:24,480
to stop having her chemotherapy.

998
00:57:25,840 --> 00:57:30,520
Alison went ahead
and renewed her wedding vows.

999
00:57:30,520 --> 00:57:32,760
I'm pleased to say that I was one
of the guests,

1000
00:57:32,760 --> 00:57:37,440
and we spent the evening together,
with her friends and family,

1001
00:57:37,440 --> 00:57:40,480
in a beautiful setting,
in a little harbour.

1002
00:57:40,480 --> 00:57:45,520
And I just felt it encapsulated
what good palliative care is about.

1003
00:57:45,640 --> 00:57:48,200
So, what I think we need to
sometimes do in health care

1004
00:57:48,200 --> 00:57:52,440
is not see that the patient
is someone who, you know,

1005
00:57:52,440 --> 00:57:55,880
comes on to our health care teams
and then needs help

1006
00:57:55,880 --> 00:57:57,920
and then is discharged again,

1007
00:57:57,920 --> 00:58:02,000
but maybe we can reframe it
as saying that we become part of
their team,

1008
00:58:02,000 --> 00:58:04,240
to help them with the special
moments in their life,

1009
00:58:04,240 --> 00:58:07,280
to help them with the moments
that are meaningful.

1010
00:58:07,280 --> 00:58:09,480
# We can be heroes

1011
00:58:11,320 --> 00:58:13,240
# Just for one day

1012
00:58:16,560 --> 00:58:21,280
# And you, you can be mean

1013
00:58:24,520 --> 00:58:28,960
# And I, I'll drink all the time...#

