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INTERVIEWER: Right, questions, here we are.
Yeah, has anything come up since the last meeting?
Any afterthoughts?
DIANA: Well, only about being accused very early on of stopping
him hunting and shooting.
-Let's now go back to the other life before this life, as it were.
Your first memory after being born,
so anything as a child.
-I mean, it was a very unhappy childhood.
I remember seeing my father slap my mother across the face
and I was hiding behind a door.
And she was crying.
The press were being unbearable,
following my every move.
-Is there any possibility of any announcement of your marriage in the near future,
can you tell me?
-He sat me down and he said, "Will you marry me?"
I thought the whole thing was hysterical,
getting married.
It was so grown up.
And here was Diana, a kindergarten teacher,
I mean the whole thing was ridiculous.
I once heard him on the telephone saying,
"Whatever happens, I'll always love you."
And I told him I'd listened at the door.
We had a filthy row.
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-I realized I had taken on an enormous role,
but I had no idea what I was going into, but no idea.
(sheep baaing).
I remember him coming to Althorp to stay.
He came with his Labrador.
My sister was all over him like a bad rash.
I thought, God, he must really hate that.
And I kept out the way.
I remember being a fat, podgy, non-make-up, unsmart lady.
But I made a lot of noise, and he liked that.
And he just came up to me after dinner, we had a big dance,
and he said, "Will you show me the gallery?"
For a 16-year-old, for someone like that to show any attention
was just so, sort of, amazed.
"Why would anyone like him be interested in me?"
Anyway, that was it for about two years.
Saw him off and on with Sarah.
Sarah got frightfully excited about the whole thing.
Then, she saw something different happening, which I hadn't twigged onto.
When he had his 30th birthday dance,
I was asked too.
"Well, why is Diana coming as well?"
And I said, "Well, I don't know, but I'd like to come."
"Oh, all right."
And I had a very nice time at the dance.
Fascinating.
And then, um, I was asked to stay with the DePasses in July by Philip DePass.
"Would you like to come cause we've got Prince of Wales staying
and you're young blood, you might amuse him."
And so I said, "Ok."
The first night we sat down on the veil and I said, you know,
"You looked so sad when you walked up the aisle
at St. Paul's with Lord Mountbatten's funeral."
And I said, "My heart bled when I watched it.
I thought this is wrong you're lonely.
You should be with somebody to look after you, et cetera."
And the next minute he leapt on my, practically.
And it was very strange cause it was almost as if, like a,
it wasn't a magnet effect.
I thought, well, this isn't very cool.
I thought men were supposed to not be so obvious.
But I hadn't got anything to go by because I had never had a boyfriend.
I'd always kept them away.
Thought they were all trouble, and I couldn't handle it.
Emotionally, I was very screwed up, I thought.
And he said, "Oh, you must come to London with me tomorrow.
I've got to go and work at Buckingham Palace."
I thought, this is too much.
I said, "No, I can't, I'm sorry."
I thought, how will I explain my presence at Buckingham Palace
when I'm supposed to be staying with Philip?
And then it sort of built up from there.
Charles used to ring me up and say, "Would you like to come for a walk?
Would you like to come for a barbecue?"
So I said, "Yes, please."
I thought this was all wonderful.
-A lot of admiration for an episode on the riverbank at Balmoral when
you looked at the press through your mirror.
Did you know that was going to happen?
-No, I saw them appearing from the other side.
So I said to Charles, "I must get out of the way.
You don't need any aggravation."
So I went up, up, up, up to the bank and say behind a tree for a good half an hour.
And then the press seized upon it.
-Lady Diana was back at the Pimlico kindergarten where she teaches this morning.
But, polite as ever, she was saying nothing about her weekend with
Prince Charles at Sandringham to the assembled press corps.
She drove off in her brand new Mini Metro with a smile.
I managed to have a word with her later, outside her Kensington flat.
Is it any possibility that any announcement of your marriage in the near future,
can you tell me?
Can you tell me if there's any possibility?
-I'm not going to say anything.
-Prince Charles did give us a hint himself.
He said we wouldn't have to wait too long.
-Careful!
-He said we wouldn't have to wait too long.
Was he completely off beam?
Was he?
-Sorry, I, sorry.
-Was he completely off beam when he said we wouldn't have to wait too long?
-I wouldn't know.
-Prince Charles of Britain is perhaps the world's most eligible bachelor,
early 30s, handsome, rich, and the heir to the British throne.
London was full of rumors this week that he may now be about to take a bride.
The photographers are trailing Lady Diana Spencer, 19 years old,
daughter of the 8th Earl of Spencer.
She fits the qualifications, aristocratic, good looking, and well heeled.
-She is said to be besotted by him, and that, in the Queen's English,
I presume means she's in love.
Sweet, kind, nice, and shy are all the terms used to describe her.
A girl born to be Queen.
Ideal for the most eligible bachelor in the western world.
Even the Queen, we're told, thinks she's delightful,
and that is as good as saying that mother approves.
Her pedigree is perfect.
Her father is the eighth Earl Spencer,
a wealthy landowner who farms 15,000 acres
in the heart of the Northamptonshire countryside.
The family link with the royal family dates back to Queen Victoria's reign
and before.
-Have you ever had feedback on who you first spoke to or what you first...
-No, nothing like that.
I was born at home.
I wasn't born in hospital.
I was born at my mother's.
-Your first memory after being born?
Anything as a child.
-It's really the smell of the inside of my pram.
-Right, you remember that vividly?
-Yes, very, yes.
-What did it smell of?
-I don't, just plastic.
The hood.
Yes, probably.
We were always shunted over to Sandringham for holidays to go and see
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, the film.
And we hated it so much.
We hated going over there.
The atmosphere was always very strange when we went there and I used to kick
and fight anyone who tried to make us go over there.
And Daddy was most insistent because he said it was rude.
And I said, I don't want to see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang for the third year running.
-Children's parties.
Do you remember any of them?
-Yeah, I hated them.
I've always hated parties and that's, you know,
that's why I've never had them on my own.
Daddy loves parties.
-Right.
-And organized it and took great pride in that.
But there was still none of the arms around the shoulder, or the hugging.
It was always the other things.
Which was probably what he had too.
I mean, yeah, it was a very unhappy childhood.
Parents were busy sorting themselves out.
Always seeing our mother crying.
Daddy never spoke to us about it.
We could never ask questions.
Too many changeover of nannies.
Very unstable, the whole thing.
I just remember being...
INTERVIEWER: Generally unhappy.
-Generally unhappy, and being very detached from everybody else.
-How did you first know about the divorce?
-I remember seeing my father slap my mother across the face,
and I was hiding behind the door.
And she was crying.
And I remember Mommy cried an awful lot.
And every Saturday, when we went up for weekends, every Saturday night,
standard procedure, she'd start crying on Saturday.
We would both see her crying.
"What's the matter, Mummy?"
"Oh, I don't want you to leave tomorrow."
Which, for a nine-year-old, was devastating, you know?
And for my brother and I it was very sort of wishy-washy but painful experience,
and he said to me the other day that he hadn't realized just how much
the divorce affected him until he got married and started having a life of his own.
-She was educated privately at Riddlesworth Hall,
and then at Westheath School in Sevenoaks.
-When she was 13, she really developed her sporting talents,
particularly diving.
DIANA: I liked all subjects.
I played the piano.
Loved the piano.
I did my tap dancing, which I absolutely adored.
There was an enormous hall there which they built on just after I got there.
I used to sneak down at night when it was all dark and put on my music
and do my ballet there in this enormous hall for hours.
And no one ever found me.
But actually, I loved being at school.
I was very naughty in the sense of always wanting to laugh and
muck about rather than sit tight in a four-walled school room.
-As a child, any ideas of futures or ambitions?
-No, but always felt very different from everyone else, very detached.
Knew I was going somewhere different.
I had no idea where.
And said to my father when I was the age of thirteen,
"I know I'm going to marry someone in the public eye."
I don't know which way.
-At thirteen?
-Yes, thinking an ambassador's wife, actually.
Not the top one.
-Since leaving school, she has lived in a 100,000 pound flat in South Kensington
given to her by her father.
-It was nice being in a flat with girls, loved that.
It was great.
Laughed my head off there.
My three girls were wonderful.
Star performers, loyalty beyond belief.
I kept myself to myself.
I wasn't interested in having a full diary.
-And she works part time at a nursery in Pimlico.
-From the minute she walked in, you could tell that she had a genuine love
for young children, particularly the very small ones.
She was just always there, if ever a child was looking miserable,
she was the one who would go and pick them up and comfort them.
-It didn't seem to be quite the life for a future Queen, but one man can testify that
Lady Diana may only have been biding her time.
Ray Hunt services the family's electrical and film equipment, and he remembers something
prophetic she told him at her sister Jane's wedding.
-She did say to me, "Nothing like this for me, right?"
She said, "Westminster Abbey or nothing."
And I said, "You're joking, Diana."
And she said, "Not really."
DIANA: By the time I got to the top of the school, all my friends had boyfriends.
But not me cause I knew somehow I had to keep myself very tidy for
whatever was coming my way.
-Many speak of her as a happy but quiet girl, and her father, her uncle,
Lord Fermoy, and others have even vouched for her virginity.
Lord Fermoy stating categorically, and I quote,
"I can assure you she has never had a lover."
-How well are you coping with all the press attention?
-Well, as you can see.
You can tell.
-Are you bearing up with it quite well though because it must be quite a strain with
all of us after you.
-Well, it is, naturally.
-Any chases involving the media in the car?
-Oh, lots of them.
But I always made sure that I went through just as the light was going to red.
So they were very stuck.
Some days I cycled, some days I didn't.
-Did they chase you on the bike?
-Oh, they chased me everywhere.
We're talking about thirty of them.
We're not talking about two.
-Prince Charles has had a few relationships that we all know about,
and he is looking for somebody that he can live with who will be Queen,
who will fulfill her duties, and everyone who knows him says that he's very tired
indeed of being pursued endlessly and being asked endlessly when
he's going to marry, and who he's going to marry.
-For a girl of 19, it was a necessary demonstration of just how great
are the pressures of living constantly in the public eye.
But she handled the problem with cheerful good nature.
-Between the two of you.
Can you say if we're likely to hear the announcement soon?
-Lady Diana.
Lady Diana.
-We thought there was going to be an announcement on his 32nd birthday,
but there wasn't, and he told reporters yesterday that it may be coming soon.
Have you any comment to make about that?
-No. -No comment, all round.
Did you have a good weekend though?
-I'm going to work now.
-The view is that her age is about right, being 19, because it's unlikely
that any ex-boyfriends would be ringing up those well-known newspapers with scandals
of this or that in future years if she is indeed going to be the Queen.
And they say that it's useful that she's so young because of childbearing,
to put it very simply.
People seem to forget, western society, we marry for love.
But when we talk about the royalty that never seems to enter it.
DIANA: Charles rang me up from Klosters saying, "I've got something to ask you."
Instinct in a female, you know what's coming.
Anyway, I sat up all night with my girls saying,
"What do I do, what do I say?"
By that time I had realized there was somebody else around.
I'd been staying at Bolehyde with the Park-Bowleses an awful lot.
I couldn't understand why Camilla kept saying to me,
"Don't do this, don't do that."
She knew so much about what he was doing privately.
Eventually I worked it all out.
The next day I went to Windsor, and I arrived about 5 o'clock.
And he sat me down and he said, "Will you marry me?"
And I laughed.
I remember thinking, this is a joke.
So I said, "Yeah, ok."
And he was deadly serious.
And he said, "You do realize that one day you will be Queen."
A voice said to me inside, "You won't be Queen, but you'll have a tough role."
So I thought to myself, ok.
So I said, "Yes" and I said, "I love you so much, I love you so much."
And he said, "Whatever love means."
Said it then.
So, I thought that was great.
I thought he meant that.
-How much thought did you really give the proposal?
-A lot, actually.
In my immaturity, which was enormous, I thought that he was very much in love with me,
which he was, but he always had a sort of besotted look about him, looking back at it.
But it wasn't the genuine sort.
You know, "Who is this girl who's so different?"
But he couldn't understand it because his immaturity was quite good in that department.
And it was like a call for duty, really.
To go and work with people.
And then it all started to build up.
The press were being unbearable, following my every move.
-The decision by the press council to discuss reports of alleged harassment of Lady
Diana have involved reporters trailing the 19-year-old almost continuously.
DIANA: I understood they had a job, but people did not understand.
They had binoculars on me the whole time.
They hired the opposite flat in Old Brompton Road,
which was a library that looked into my bedroom.
And it wasn't fair on the girls.
I couldn't put the telephone off the hook in case any of their family
were ill overnight.
The papers used to ring me up at two in the morning cause they were
just putting out their last story, could I confirm it or deny?
Whenever he rang me up, he said, "Poor Camilla Parker-Bowles.
I've had her on the telephone tonight and she says there's lots of press at Bolehyde.
She's having a very rough time."
And I never complained about the press to him because I didn't think
it was my position to do so.
And I said, "How many press are out there?"
He said, "Oh, at least four."
And I thought, my God, there's 34 out here.
But I never told him.
I just couldn't cope with it.
I got no support from Charles and no support from the press office.
They just said, "You're on your own."
So I thought fine.
I was able to recognize an inner determination to survive.
-Before I knew what happened, I was in Clarence House.
Nobody there to welcome me.
It was like going into a hotel.
And then everyone said, "Why are you at Clarence House?"
And I said, "Because I was told that I was expected to be at Clarence House."
And I'd left my flat from the last time, and suddenly I had a policeman.
And my policeman the night before the engagement said to me,
"I just want you to know that this is your last night of freedom ever in
the rest of your life, so make the most of it."
And it was like a sword went in my heart.
I thought, God.
-Charles Philip Arthur George Windsor,
heir to the British throne, Prince of Wales,
Earl of Chester, Duke of Cornwall, and Great Stuart of Scotland
has finally chosen his bride.
She is Lady Diana Spencer, and their engagement is the news Britain has been waiting for.
CARTHEW: 11:00am, Buckingham Palace.
The beginning of a day to remember for Prince Charles, Lady Diana,
and for quite a lot of other people too.
The long-awaited, much-written-about engagement.
There was a fair amount of unrestrained,
old-fashioned happiness in the cold February air.
It seemed to all of us there that Britain's constitutional monarchy
appeared to be in quite good health.
And for the couple themselves in the palace, undoubtedly a feeling of relief
that it was all out in the open.
-It's good, it's great, innit?
Cheers everybody up, you know, too, something like this.
(inaudible) getting on a bit, innit?
About time he got married.
-Immediately after lunch, the Earl Spencer, Lady Diana's father,
most surprisingly appeared in the middle of the crowd.
His object, he said, was to take happy snaps of the palace.
RAINE: You must get her.
We're so (inaudible).
-He'd always done this sort of thing on important days in his daughter's life.
At 3:00, Prince Charles and Lady Diana appeared for
the first time in public.
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Do you find it a very daunting experience that yesterday you were a nanny
looking after children, now you're about to marry the Prince of Wales and one day,
you would in all likelihood be Queen?
It's a tremendous change for someone, if I may say, of 19 to make all of a
sudden, the transition.
-It is, but I've had a small run up to it all in the last six months
and next to Prince Charles, I know I can't go wrong.
He's there with me.
-I'm amazed that she's been brave enough to take me on.
-And, I suppose, in love. -Of course.
-Whatever "in love" means.
You can put your own interpretation.
-Obviously, it means two very happy people.
-Yes. -As you can see.
-Well, from us, congratulations.
BOTH (overlapping): Thank you very much, very kind.
-The gilded surroundings of the Goldsmith's Hall in the city
of London were chosen quite deliberately by the palace in order to show Lady Diana off
to the best advantage for her first public appearance.
-Do you remember what your first ever memory was?
DIANA: In this life?
-Yes.
-Yeah, I remember my first engagement so well.
I remember being so excited.
I got this black dress from Emanuel's.
-It was in black taffeta.
It was off-the-shoulder and by normal royal standards, it was fairly revealing.
DIANA: I thought it was ok cause girls my age wore this.
I hadn't appreciated that I was now seen as a royal lady, although I'd only got a
ring on my finger as opposed to two rings.
And I remember walking into my husband-to-be's study and saying, "I'm ready."
And he said, "You're not going in that dress, are you?"
And I said, "Yes, I am."
He said, "It's black."
I said, "Yes, it's black."
"But only people in mourning wear black."
And I said, "Yes, but I'm not part of your family yet."
Black to me was the smartest color you could possibly have at the age of 19.
It was a real grown up dress.
-She looked pretty relaxed, considering this must have been something
of an ordeal for her.
DIANA: And I was quite big-chested then, and they all got frightfully excited.
I learned a lesson that night.
I remember meeting Princess Grace.
-One of the performers was Princess Grace of Monaco.
She, of course, is very experienced at this sort of occasion,
and the often-tricky business of making small talk.
She also knows how to give a helping hand to a newcomer,
and how to pose for the cameras,
which Lady Diana is now learning.
DIANA: I didn't know whether to get out of the door first.
I didn't know if your handbag should be carried in your left hand,
not your right hand.
Everything was all over the place.
I remember that evening so well.
I was terrified.
Nearly sick.
-At the end, something else Lady Diana is going to have to get used to...
the fusillade of camera flashbulbs.
MANGOLD: After the royal wedding and honeymoon this summer,
Prince Charles will bring his 19-year-old bride here to
Highgrove in Gloucestershire.
This is the 18th century manner house bought last summer by the duchy of
Cornwall for one million pounds.
Prince Charles's neighbors living a mile away in Tetbury were as pleased
as the prince himself must be at the prospect of a royal wedding at last.
-I was absolutely overcome.
I'm very, very pleased for them.
And I feel like going out and getting a card and sending it,
actually, but it's probably a bit silly.
-I think they're a really super couple.
You know, they'd have a lovely sort of life round here if they do sort of live in
Highgrove most of the time.
It's really smashing, so romantic.
And I think really when the country's so, everyone's so depressed and everything,
I think really it's nice to sort of cheer everybody up with a lovely wedding
in the summer, hopefully.
You know, so, what more can you say?
Smashing.
Thanks very much.
DIANA: When I arrived at Clarence House there was a letter on my bed from Camilla
dated two days previous saying, "Such exciting news about the engagement.
Do let's have lunch soon when Prince of Wales goes to Australia and New Zealand.
And love to see the ring.
Lots of love, Camilla."
And that was, wow.
You may recall seeing a picture of me sobbing in a red coat when he went off
on his aeroplane.
That was nothing to do with him going;
the most awful thing had happened before he went.
I was in his study talking to him about his trip.
The telephone rang; it was Camilla, and, just before he was going for five weeks.
So I thought, "Shall I be nice, or shall I just sit here?"
So I thought I'd be nice, so I left them to it.
And it just broke my heart, that.
So I organized lunch, we had lunch, and very tricky, very tricky indeed.
She said, "You're not going to hunt, are you?"
I said, "No."
"Oh, I just wanted to know that."
But as far as she was concerned that was her communication.
I was still too immature to understand all the messages coming my way.
And then someone in his office told me that my husband has had a bracelet made for her.
I walked into this man's office one day and I said, "Oh, what's in that parcel?"
"Oh," he said, "you shouldn't look at that."
I said, "Well, I'm going to look at it."
So I opened it and there was the bracelet.
I was devastated.
And he said, "Well, he's going to give it to her tonight."
So rage, rage, rage.
You know, "Why can't you be honest with me?"
But, no, he absolutely cut me dead.
It was as if he's made his decision, and if it wasn't going to work,
it wasn't going to work.
He'd found the virgin, the sacrificial lamb, and, in a way, he was obsessed with me.
But it was hot and cold, hot and cold.
You never knew what mood it was going to be, up and down, up and down.
So I went upstairs, had lunch with my sisters who were there, and I said,
"I can't marry him.
I can't do this.
This is absolutely unbelievable."
And they were wonderful and said, "Well, bad luck, Duch, you're face is on the tea towel,
so you're too late to chicken out."
-Two young and loving and happy faces are, in their own very individual way,
putting a smile back into a broken-hearted, miserable Britain.
300 million pounds are the spoils of their wedding.
Lot of money, that, 300 million pounds.
But of all the souvenirs, of all the presents winging their way to the happy couple,
the nicest, I think, comes from the Black Country.
A man who grows four-leaf clovers is sending them one apiece.
He says, no matter how much money they may have or might have,
they still have to have Lady Luck riding on their shoulders.
How very true.
-The Royal Family made the traditional carriage drive down the course
at Ascot today.
In the third carriage, Lady Diana, but no Prince Charles.
He's having an away day on a Concorde to New York.
As if to make up for this, she's splurged a bit on the fashion,
an outfit that brought sighs of approval from people in the royal enclosure,
particularly that hat.
DIANA: The day we got engaged I had literally one long dress, one silk shirt,
one smart pair of shoes, and that was it.
So, suddenly, my mother and I had to go and buy six of everything.
Bear in mind you have to change four times a day.
Suddenly your wardrobe expands to something unbelievable.
-The effect, displayed somewhat shyly today, suggests that Lady Diana,
when she becomes Princess of Wales, is going to be a leader of fashion of the
kind not seen in the royal family for 50 years.
-News of Lady Diana's visit spread quickly.
Shoppers waited in pouring rain while staff from nearby offices abandoned
work for half an hour.
Lady Sarah Spencer was there to give a sister's opinion of the wedding dress.
It's been slightly altered.
The crowds saw that, like most brides, Lady Diana has lost weight as the day approaches.
-The bulimia started the week after we got engaged.
My husband put his hand on my waistline and said, "Oh, a bit chubby here, aren't we?"
And that triggered off something in me.
And I remember the first time I made myself sick, I was so thrilled because
I felt like this was the release of tension.
The first time I got measured for my wedding dress I was 29 around the waist.
The day I got married I was 23 and a half.
I'd shrunk into nothing.
(inaudible announcer).
DIANA: The public side was very different obviously from the private side.
The public side, they wanted a fairy princess.
Touch them and everything will turn into gold,
and all their worries would be forgotten.
Little did they realize that the individual was crucifying herself inside
because she didn't think she was good enough.
"Why me?
Why all this publicity?"
-I think she saw all the press around her, all the television crews from
all around the world.
Probably went though her mind about the big day next Wednesday.
It's also her third public engagement in two days.
I just think she was surrounded, she felt claustrophobic,
and she felt she had to move.
-A lot of press today.
Very many more, of course, next Wednesday.
How will she cope on that?
-I think she'll cope magnificently Wednesday,
I think it's just a little lapse.
Bit of pre-wedding nerves.
CHARLES: It's not much fun, actually, watching polo,
when you're being surrounded by people with very long lenses,
poking in from all directions at you the entire time.
And then taking a photograph, which is quite easy to do, and saying, "Looking bored."
And I think all this adds up to a certain amount of strain each time.
Yes, I would only hope that after we get married, it will be a bit easier to
come to a polo match without this kind of, you know, intensity of interest.
(bells ringing)
DIANA: We got married on Wednesday, and on the Monday we'd gone to St. Paul's for
our last rehearsal, and that's when all the camera lights were on full.
And I sobbed my eyes out, absolutely collapsed.
And it was collapsing because of all sorts of things.
The Camilla thing rearing its head the whole way through our engagement,
and I was desperately trying to be mature about the situation,
but I didn't have the foundation to do it,
and I couldn't talk to anyone about it.
-Lady Diana, meeting so many people is still quite new to you.
How have you reacted to this warmth and affection?
-Well, it's been a tremendous boost, and just a mass of smiling faces.
It's wonderful.
-Quite emotional, too.
-Oh, very.
Very, yes.
-One thing that I know St. Paul's have done to make it, from their point of view,
very personal, they were telling me that where you're going to make your vows,
they've made a platform so that at least you can feel that you're together and alone
because I think everyone would agree, when you make your vows, that's the most solemn,
the most precious and a very personal moment.
Is it going to be that for you, even though you know the eyes of the world
are watching you at that very important moment?
-Well, I hope so, yes.
I don't know about Diana, but I'm more used to it I think probably now,
knowing for years that the camera's poking at you from every quarter
and recording every twitch you make.
So you can get used to a certain extent, and on those occasions,
you accept that that's part of it.
I think that if you don't try to work out in your own mind some kind of method for
existing and surviving this kind of thing, you would go mad, I think.
I don't know, do you find that after the last six months,
you're beginning to get used to it?
-Just.
-It is, I suppose, one of the most important things you're going to have to
adjust to really, isn't it?
-Well, of course, yes.
-And Prince Charles has been a great help to you in that,
I should think.
-Marvelous, a tower of strength.
-Gracious.
-I had to say that because you're sitting there.
-I'm sure you would anyway.
-I remember my husband sent me a very nice signet ring the night before to
Clarence House with the Prince of Wales feathers on it, and a very nice card that said,
"I'm so proud of you.
I'll be there at the altar for you tomorrow.
Just look em in the eye and knock em dead."
I had a very bad fit of bulimia the night before.
I ate everything I could possibly find, which amused my sister because she was staying
at Clarence House with me, and nobody understood what was going on there.
It was sort of hush-hush.
I was sick as a parrot that night,
and it was such an indication of what was going on.
Next morning when we were getting up at Clarence House.
I must have been awake about five.
And I was very, very deathly calm.
Deathly, deathly calm.
I felt I was a lamb to the slaughter, and I knew it.
(bugle).
-At the household cavalry barracks, horses were awakened and mucking out began in
preparation for a day for which both men and horses had been practicing for weeks.
Along the route, both crowds and excitement were building.
By 8:00, police estimated 900,000 people were already out in central London.
Before he left home, Lord Spencer, the proudest of men today, wanted a few words.
SPENCER: I'd just like to say a word.
May I say a word?
The Spencers have, through the centuries, fought for their king and country.
Today, Diana is vying to help her country for the rest of her life.
She'll be following in the tradition of her ancestors,
and she will have at her side the man she loves.
-And then, just after half past ten, from Clarence House, came the glass trench,
and our first chance to see Lady Diana, dress half-glimpsed,
veil tantalizingly low.
And so, Lady Diana in her truly stunning dress is well and truly launched
on her way to the cathedral.
Course this is the moment where she could exercise the traditional bride's
prerogative of being late, but, somehow, I don't think she will.
-Did your father say anything to you in the coach?
-No, he was so thrilled.
Waved himself stupid.
We went past St. Martin's in the Field, and he thought we were at St. Paul's,
so he was ready to get out.
It was wonderful, that.
I don't think I was happy.
I think I was, I never tried to call it off in the sense of really doing that,
but, I think the worst day of my life.
♪ ♪
I cried a lot on the Monday when we'd done the rehearsal because the tension suddenly
hit me, but by Wednesday I was fine, and I had to get my father basically up the aisle,
so that's what I concentrated on.
And I remember being terribly worried curtsying to the Queen.
Walking down the aisle, I spotted Camilla, pale grey, veiled hat, pillbox hat.
Saw it all.
Her son Tom standing on a chair.
To this day, you know, vivid memory.
And I thought, "Well, there we are, that's it, let's hope that's all over with."
-Charles Philip Arthur George, wilt thou have this woman to thy wedded wife,
to live together after God's ordinance in the holiest state of matrimony?
Wilt thou love her, comfort her, honor and keep her in sickness and in health,
and forsaking all others keep thee only unto her so long as ye both shall live.
-I will.
-I, Diana Frances. -I, Diana Frances.
-Take thee, Charles Philip Arthur George.
-Take thee, Philip Charles Arthur George.
-To my wedded husband. -To my wedded husband.
-To have and to hold. -To have and to hold.
-From this day forward. -From this day forward.
-For better, for worse. -For better, for worse.
-For richer, for poorer. -For richer, for poorer.
-In sickness and in health. -In sickness and in health.
-To love and to cherish. -To love and to cherish.
-Till death us do part. -Till death us do part.
-Here is the stuff of which fairytales are made.
A prince and princess on their wedding day.
DIANA: And I remember being so in love with my husband that
I couldn't take my eyes off of him.
I just absolutely thought I was the luckiest girl in the world,
and, you know, he was going to look after me.
(crowd cheering).
-It's absolutely fantastic.
They're right in front of me.
They're right underneath us.
Looking, looking right up at them as they come past us.
Well, that was the moment you've been waiting for, wasn't it?
Did you get a good view?
-I did, it was lovely.
She was beautiful.
-What about Margaret, did you get a good view?
-Marvelous, marvelous.
-How much would you give to swap with Lady Di?
-Anything.
DIANA: It was a wonderful feeling, everybody hooray, everybody happy,
and everybody happy because they thought we were happy,
and there was a big question mark in my mind.
♪ ♪
-Your Royal Highness?
Sir, Sir, please.
DIANA: Went back to Buckingham Palace, did all the photographs, nothing tactile.
I was basically wandering around, trying to find where I should be,
touching my long train with my bridesmaids and pages.
Sat next to him at the wedding breakfast, which it's called, but actually it was lunch.
Neither of us spoke to each other.
We were so shattered.
I was exhausted, the whole thing.
CROWD: We want Charlie, we want Charlie, we want Charlie!
-The curtains are open.
That's the signal.
The Prince of Wales.
His bride, the Princess of Wales, Diana Spencer.
(crowd cheering)
-Got out on the balcony.
Overwhelming, what we saw.
It was so humble-making.
Thousands and thousands of people happy.
It was just wonderful.
I realized I had taken on an enormous role,
but I had no idea what I was going into.
But no idea.
-The Duke of Edinburgh and the Queen Mother helped throw the confetti this afternoon,
Prince Edward and Prince Andrew tied balloons and a suitable notice to the
going-away carriage.
And into the afternoon sunshine they came, Prince Charles and the new
Princess of Wales, smiling and looking wonderfully relaxed.
DIANA: I just had tremendous hope in me, which was slashed by day two.
My husband took eight Laurens Van der Post novels along on our honeymoon.
-To prop the bed up? -Well, no, to read.
So every lunchtime or dinnertime, when we were allowed to be on our own,
we were supposed to read them.
We were never on our own.
(crowd chanting)
I remember crying my heart out on my honeymoon.
I was so tired.
For all the wrong reasons, totally.
-You can now say that the honeymoon has really started.
Actually, it gets more like a romantic novel as the minutes go on.
All the old clichés come to mind, like "And so we say farewell,"
and "At last, we're alone, darling."
DIANA: We were opening our diaries to discuss various things;
out comes two pictures of Camilla.
And on our honeymoon,
cufflinks arrive on his wrists.
Two C's entwined, like the Chanel C's.
Got it in one, knew exactly.
So I said, "Camilla gave you those, didn't she."
He said, "Yes, so what's wrong?
They're a present from a friend."
And boy, did we have a row.
Jealousy.
Total jealousy.
And it's such a good idea, the two C's.
But it wasn't that clever.
By then the bulimia was appalling.
Absolutely appalling, it was rife, it was four times a day on the yacht.
Anything I could find, I would gobble up and be sick two minutes later.
We survived that all right.
Then we went off to Balmoral straight from the yacht.
Everyone was there to welcome us.
And then the realization set in.
My dreams were appalling at night.
I dreamt of Camilla the whole time.
Everybody saw I was getting thinner and thinner and thinner,
I was being sicker and sicker and sicker.
-May we ask, are you having a good holiday, sir?
-Every now and then, yes.
DIANA: Basically, they thought I could adapt to being Princess of Wales overnight.
-Madam, how are you enjoying married life?
-It's highly recommended.
-How do you like Balmoral as a place?
-It's lovely, it's beautiful.
-Have you cooked a breakfast yet?
-I don't eat breakfast.
Obsessed by Camilla.
Totally.
Didn't trust him.
Thought every five minutes he was ringing
up, asking her how to handle his marriage, dadadada.
And all the guests at Balmoral coming to stay just stared at me the whole time.
And you know, treated me like glass.
As far as I was concerned, I was Diana,
and the only difference was people called me ma'am now, Your Royal Highness.
They curtsied; that was the only difference.
We stayed up there from August to October.
By October I was about to cut my wrists.
I was in a very bad way.
It rained and rained and rained.
I came down early from Balmoral to seek treatment,
not because I hated Balmoral but because I was in such a bad way.
Couldn't sleep.
Didn't eat.
A whole world was collapsing around me.
All the analysts, psychiatrists you'd never dream of came plodding in,
trying to sort me out.
Put me on high doses of Valium.
It was me telling them what I needed.
They were telling me pills.
Got to keep them happy.
They could go to bed at night and sleep knowing the Princess of Wales
wasn't going to stab anyone.
But the Diana that was still very much there decided that it was just time,
patience, and adapting were all that was needed.
Anyway, a godsend, William was conceived in October.
Marvelous news.
Occupied my mind.
-In a way, an odd place to arrive.
None of the grandeur and romance and legend of Wales here.
Just a little station with one passenger waiting for the upline train.
There was a minimum of formality at Shotton, just a Lord Lieutenant and
a Lady High Sherriff to greet the couple.
Beyond them the flat outline of Shotton's beleaguered steelworks,
the reminder of the problems of modern Wales.
The Princess went straight into an impromptu walkabout in the station path
and received her first unofficial bouquet.
The princess was in a red and green wool suit with a hat faintly reminiscent
of a Robin Hood principal Boylan pantomime.
But she can obviously get away with things other royals wouldn't attempt.
DIANA: We went to Wales for three days to do our visit as Prince and Princess of Wales.
Being terribly sick carrying this child, hadn't told the world I was pregnant.
Rained the whole time round Wales.
I wasn't easy.
I cried a lot in the car, saying I couldn't get out.
I couldn't cope with the crowds.
"Why had they come to see us?
Someone help me."
He just said, "You've just got to get out and do it."
You just got out, he tried his hardest and he did really well in that department.
Got me out, and once I was out I was able to do my bit.
But it cost me such a lot because I hadn't got the energy because I was being
sick with my bulimia so much, let alone, you know, the support for him or vice versa.
-Perhaps the highlight of this grueling three days was the conferring
of the freedom of the city of Cardiff on the princess.
All through the tour it was expected at some stage the princess
would say something in Welsh.
(horns).
DIANA: Desperately trying to make him proud of me.
Made a speech in Welsh.
He was more nervous than I was.
I am extremely grateful to you, Lord Mayor, and to the city council,
and to the city of Cardiff for granting me the Freedom of the City.
I realize it is a very great honor and I am most grateful.
I would like to try to express my thanks to you in Welsh also.
It is a great pleasure for me to come to Wales.
I look forward to returning many times in the future.
Thank you.
(applause)
Never got any praise from Charles for it.
But I began to understand that that was absolutely normal.
-Lady Diana Spencer became the Princess of Wales in a ceremony watched
by the world at the end of July.
Buckingham Palace today said she's expecting.
The baby will be second in line to the British throne.
-Oh.
(inaudible chatter).
-Don't you think that perhaps it's a bit soon.
-Well, I do really.
I don't really think they've got to know each other great by now.
But they obviously have.
-Let's turn to your good lady.
What do you think, a boy or a girl?
-Boy or a girl?
I don't think it really matters.
Another baby's always good news.
-Whether or not the baby's to be born here has yet to be decided.
That's largely a question for the Queen's gynecologist, George Pinker,
who will be attending the princess throughout.
That's just one of many questions for the future.
For the present, though, well, there's really only one way of saying it, isn't there?
That's, of course, if they'll let me.
Wonder if you might, in her royal highness's absence, pass those on from ATV, ATV Today,
all its viewers, with our sincere congratulations.
-If only the station was always this full, said the British rail official.
And the royal train pulled in right on time.
For the hundreds of guests, just one question.
And, yes, her royal highness was onboard.
Recently the princess has had to cancel several engagements because of morning sickness.
DIANA: I was sick all day.
I didn't know what to do.
I was very aware that I wasn't being helpful to my husband, and I was just mortified.
-Today she looked well enough, although perhaps just a little pale.
DIANA: I mean, I look gray in all the pictures.
I remember exactly what I was wearing.
Black felt hat, and a sort of, um, Robin Hood green cloak.
Just simply dreadful.
And I felt so sick.
I remember it.
-She is young.
She's only just over twenty, and she is having a baby, and she is, after all, human.
Just because she's a royal princess, it doesn't mean to say she has a baby any
differently to anybody else.
DIANA: Very, very difficult pregnancy, indeed.
Sick the whole time.
Bulimia and morning sickness.
And this family's never had anybody who's had morning sickness before,
so every time in my evening dress, I had to go out, I either fainted or I was sick.
So I was a problem.
And they registered: Diana's a problem.
She's different.
She's doing everything that we never did.
Why?
-And what about the photographers.
Obviously, they're all looking for the ideal picture.
Are they going to take any notice of this?
I think they might.
I wonder sometimes about some of the foreign photographers,
particularly the French and the Germans.
They don't really care about anything except getting a good shot on their camera.
But they might just find that they're gonna have to pack they're bags and
take a few steps back and have a little bit of a pause.
Because they are literally camping wherever you go.
DIANA: It was Charles's choice when we first got married not to run around.
He wanted to try to have a home life of some sort.
But he didn't know how to do it because he'd never been taught.
So the whole thing just evaporated.
-When you fell down the stairs...
-I threw myself down the stairs.
Charles said I was crying wolf.
And I said I felt so desperate, and I was crying my eyes out.
And he said, "I'm not going to listen, you're always doing this to me.
I'm going riding now."
So I threw myself down the stairs.
Bearing in mind I was carrying a child.
Quite bruised around the stomach.
Queen comes out, absolutely horrified.
Shaking, she was so frightened.
And Charles went out riding, and when he came back,
it was just dismissal.
When we had William, we had to find a date in the diary that suited him and his polo.
William had to be induced because I couldn't handle the press pressure any longer.
It was becoming unbearable.
It was as if everybody was monitoring every day for me.
And I had to be aware that the whole country was holding its breath.
-But one thing is certain.
When the celebrations really begin to bubble, so will many bottles of this,
Earl Spencer's special Althorp champagne for estate workers and locals alike
all ready and willing to wet the baby's head.
DIANA: Went in very early, and I was sick as a parrot the whole way through the labor.
-Strawberries and cream, anybody?
DIANA: Very bad labor.
They wanted a caesarian.
No one told me this until afterwards.
The boy arrived.
Great excitement.
Everyone was absolutely high as a kite.
♪ CROWDS: It's a boy, it's a boy, it's a boy. ♪
♪ It's a boy, it's a boy, it's a boy. ♪
DIANA: I knew it was a boy.
I was just thrilled.
♪ CROWD: It's a boy, it's a boy. ♪
-Does he look like you? -Very kind.
-Does he look like you, sir? -No, he's lucky enough not to.
-How do you feel, sir?
-It's very difficult to tell at the moment.
-How do you feel?
-I'm obviously relieved and delighted.
It's marvelous.
It's rather a grown up thing, I find.
Rather a shock to my system.
-What is the baby like? -He's in marvelous form.
-Does the baby have any hair? -He looks marvelous.
Yes, fair, sort of blondish.
-Who does he look like?
-It will probably go to something else later on.
-Who does he look like, sir, you or his mother?
-You can't tell yet.
-They have been singing, "Well done, Charlie, let's have another one."
Is that on the program of events?
-Bloody hell, give us a chance.
You ask my wife, I don't think she'd be too pleased just yet.
-Have you thought of a name yet, sir?
Have you thought of a name yet?
-We've thought of one or two, but bit of an argument about it.
-William Arthur Philip Louis, how about that?
-I said Louis, yes. -You said Louis?
-Yes, yes. -Are you happy with William?
-Yes, I think William's a very nice name.
-It's a King's name.
-Prince Billy.
Prince Billy.
-King William.
-Prince William, you think?
Regal ring?
King William, indeed, regal ring.
-Willy.
Not bad, not bad.
-King Willy.
-Yes, King Bill.
-May we see your son, Your Royal Highness?
-How good a dad was he with the children?
-At the beginning, he loved the nursery life.
I mean, he just couldn't wait to get back.
And do the bottle.
Came home, and then post-natal depressions hit me hard,
and it wasn't so much the baby that had produced it,
it was the baby that triggered off all else that was going on in my mind.
If Charles didn't come home when he said he was coming home,
I thought something dreadful had happened to him.
Tears, panic, all the rest of it.
He didn't see the panic.
I would just sit there quietly.
Boy, was I troubled.
DIANA: William's Christening was desperate,
because I literally had just given birth.
He was only six weeks old,
and it was all decided around me.
Hence, the ghastly pictures of somebody who is so, and my bulimia,
everything was out of control.
Yeah, everything.
I was treated like nobody else's business on the fourth of August.
Nobody asked me whether it was suitable for William.
11:00 couldn't have been worse.
There were endless pictures of the Queen, Queen Mother, Charles, and William.
I was excluded totally in that day.
(baby crying)
I wasn't very well, and I just blubbed my eyes out.
Yeah.
Well, he sensed that I wasn't exactly hunky dory.
One minute, I was nobody, and the next minute, I was Princess of Wales, mother,
media toy, member of this family, you name it.
And it was just too much for one person at that time.
-Well, with the amount of stories that there are in our newspapers and on television,
you could hardly fail to notice that the Prince and the Princess of Wales, and,
of course, young Prince William, are now well into the swing
of their tour of Australia.
Brisbane was the place where they expected the biggest crowds of the tour,
and they got them.
The police estimated there were 80,000 people here...
but wise old locals reckoned there were nearer 100,000.
-The crowds were just something to be believed.
And, you know, my husband had never seen crowds like it and I sure as hell hadn't.
-Ladies and gentlemen, the last time I was here was two years ago in 1981 shortly
before we were married, and at that time everybody was saying good luck,
and I hope everything goes well, and how lucky you are to be engaged to such
a lovely lady, and, my goodness, I was lucky enough to marry her.
And we had many many messages.
It's amazing what ladies do when your back's turned.
-The theme of this second week has really been the princess's rapidly growing popularity.
-Everybody always said, when we were in the car, "Oh, we're on the wrong side.
We want to see her, we don't want to see him."
And that's all we could hear as we went down these crowds.
And, obviously, he wasn't used to that.
Nor was I.
He took it out on me.
He was jealous.
I understood the jealousy, but I couldn't explain that I didn't ask for it.
-I've come to the conclusion that really it would have been far easier to
have two wives...
(laughter)
To have covered both sides of the street.
And I could have walked down the middle directing the operation.
-I kept saying, "Whoever you married would have been of interest for the clothes,
and how she handles this, that, and the other.
And you've built the building block for your wife to stand on to
make her own building block."
He didn't see that at all.
I learned to be a royal in one week.
I was thrown into the deep end, which, now, I prefer it that way.
Nobody ever helped me.
At all.
They'd be there to criticize, but never be there to say, "Well done."
When we came back from our six-week tour I was a different person.
I was more grown up, more mature.
But not anything like what one was going to go through the process
of the next four or five years.
Between William and Harry being born, it's total darkness.
I can't remember much, I blocked it out.
It was such pain.
-Now, they then had all sorts of people for you to talk to.
-Yes.
-Did you have any choice over it?
-No, Doctor Mitchell came in every evening, 6:00, and I had to explain to him
about my conversations with my husband during the day.
And there weren't many conversations, it was more tears than anything else,
because on the outside, people were saying I was giving my husband a hard time,
I was acting like a spoiled child.
But I knew that I just needed rest and patience and time to adapt to all
the roles that were required of me overnight.
And by then there was immense jealousy 'cause every single day I was
on the front of the newspapers.
Anyway, Harry appeared, by miracle.
Charles and I were very, very close to each other the six weeks before Harry born,
the closest we had ever, ever been and ever will have been.
And then suddenly as Harry was born, it just went bang, our marriage,
the whole thing down the drain.
-Good evening.
The Princess of Wales's new baby, born at twenty past four this afternoon is another boy.
Both are doing well.
The new prince, not yet named, weighed six pounds, fourteen ounces.
He has pale blue eyes and, according to his father, indeterminate color hair.
DIANA: I knew Harry was going to be a boy 'cause I saw it in the scan.
And Charles, all he wanted was a girl.
He wanted two children, and he wanted a girl.
I knew Harry was a boy, and I didn't tell him.
-What's your reaction? -What do you think?
Have you had any children?
-I've had two, and one on the way.
-Marvelous.
What was your reaction?
-Fantastic.
And I was there both times.
-Exactly so.
Marvelous.
-Were you expecting a boy?
-No, I mean, it doesn't matter what it was, as long as he was all right.
-His name is Henry Charles Albert David,
but they're gonna call him Harry.
-Who chose the name? -I did.
I chose William and Harry.
But Charles did the rest.
But he wanted Albert and Arthur, and I said, "No, too old, no thank you."
Harry arrived, Harry was a boy.
First comment was, "Oh, God, it's a boy."
Something inside me closed off and by then I knew he'd gone back to his lady.
But somehow we managed to have Harry.
And Harry is a complete joy, and is actually closer to his father than perhaps William.
(banging on the piano)
-Yes, four hands, two princes, and the piano.
WILLIAM: Harry, Harry, don't tread on my toes.
-It's a photo session at Kensington Palace,
with the Prince and Princess of Wales and family.
-And then there was an ITV film.
DIANA: I was basically bribed to do that.
At first of all, an American network was going to do it for Operation Raleigh,
and they were going to raise some incredible amount of money.
And I said I didn't want to do it.
And Charles said, "Ok, I'll do it."
And they came back and said no, no, we want both of you, or we don't want any of you.
So I said, "No."
So they dropped Charles, and then ITN picked it up and said if your wife does it with you,
we will pay you such and such amount, so there was the bribe.
-Into what? -Into the Charities Trust.
ALISTAIR: Well, now, two questions that everybody will want to have answered.
What do you say when you read in the papers that you are a determined, domineering woman?
-I don't always read that.
I'm, people are very willing to tell me that.
But I don't think I am.
I'm a perfectionist with myself, but not necessarily with everybody else.
And those stories arose a long time ago and have kept coming out.
Again and again.
But I don't think I am.
-Do you feel hurt by them?
DIANA: Well, obviously one does.
You feel very wounded and if it comes out, you think, oh gosh,
I don't want to go out and do my engagement this morning,
nobody wants to see me, help, panic.
But you've got to push yourself out and remember some people, hopefully,
won't believe everything they read about you.
Because there's far too much about me in the newspapers, far too much.
It horrifies me, when there's something more important like what goes on in hospice,
or there's been a bomb or something, they'll put me on the front page.
-I feel underdressed.
Why don't you sit down?
Is this for me?
-See you in the flesh.
-In the flesh.
Don't look too near, you might get a shock.
-I've seen enough photos.
-I know, there's too many of those.
-(inaudible) in the shop downstairs.
-Are they?
How much do you sell them for?
-Three pounds ten. -Is that all?
-Misses bought it. -Under pressure?
A lot of hard work goes into it.
I mean, how long does it take to make something like this?
-I really don't know.
-But there is a natural and continuing interest in you.
For example, have you actually tried to change Prince Charles in
any way since you got married?
-Not at all.
I mean, obviously, there were one or two things that, maybe the odd
tie or something, but nothing.
-Shoes. -Shoes.
We won't go any further.
But nothing dramatic.
(inaudible chatter)
They followed us around for eighteen months.
Very strange.
I think you must, can I sit down here?
It's all right?
Who's that?
Who does she belong to?
-Now, you both like skiing.
And yet, every year, it has become a regular, you don't appear to hit it off exactly
eye to eye on the slopes.
What is the secret of this?
You two read the papers.
-Not if I can help it.
I suspect most husbands and wives find that they often have arguments.
-But we don't.
-No, no, no, but occasionally we do.
Because I go on longer sometimes.
-Yes, but I'm faster. -There we are.
-Of course, some people say that you're so slim you probably
don't eat enough anyway.
-When we go on an engagement, if it's a lunchtime one, we often have a buffet lunch,
so we can get around the enormous amount of people there sometimes are.
So it's impossible to talk and eat at the same time.
So you end up chasing a bit of chicken around the plate
and then never getting anything yourself.
And by the time you get home, certainly there's no time,
you're rushing off somewhere else.
I'm never on what's called a diet.
Maybe I'm so scrawny it's because I take so much exercise.
I don't know.
-In what way was the Queen involved with doctors of your bulimia?
-None. -Not at all? -Not at all.
-Did she know about it at all?
-She indicated to me that she thought that it was the reason why our marriage
had gone downhill, was because Charles was having such a difficult time
with Diana's bulimia.
-Right, did she indicate that to you?
-Yes, she told me that.
She hung the coat on the hook, so to speak.
And it made me realize that they all saw that as the cause of the marriage,
not one of the symptoms of the marriage.
-Any wise heads during the whole thing that were helpful?
-I think a lot of people tried because they saw that something was going wrong.
But nobody actually, I never leant on anyone.
None of my family knew about this at all.
After five years of being married, my sister Jane came up to see me,
and I had a v-neck on.
She said, "Duch, what's that marking on your chest."
I said, "Oh, it's nothing."
She said, "What is it?"
And the night before, I wanted to talk to Charles about something;
he wouldn't listen to me.
Said I was crying wolf.
So I picked up his pen knife off his dressing table and scratched myself
heavily down my chest and down my, both thighs.
A lot of blood.
And hadn't made any reaction whatsoever to him.
And she went for me, she said, "You mustn't let the side down,
this, that, and the other."
And I turned on her.
I said, "Give me some credit that I haven't troubled any of you in my family
for five years about this."
And obviously that perception is made different now.
They're annoyed by the lack of support from him.
-It's a particular pleasure to be able to introduce my wife
to this great Pacific province and to let her see,
(crowd cheering)
And to let her see for herself, and to find out for herself
just what a warm, hearty lot you all are.
-Then things got a bit tricky on the bulimia front.
-Yes. -And the Expo.
-The Expo where I passed out. -Yeah.
-Yeah, I remember, I had never fainted before in my life.
And we'd been walking around for four hours, we hadn't had any food.
And presumably I hadn't eaten for days beforehand.
When I say that, I mean food staying down.
And I remember walking around feeling really ghastly, and I didn't dare tell anyone I felt
ghastly because I thought they'd think I was whinging.
I put my arm on my husband's shoulder and said, "Darling, I think I'm about to disappear."
And slid down the side of him.
My husband told me off.
He said I could have passed out quietly somewhere else.
And everyone was saying, "She can't go out tonight,
she can't go out, she must have some sleep."
Charles said, "She must go out tonight, otherwise there's going to be
a sense of terrific drama.
They're gonna think there's something really awful wrong with her."
Inside me, I knew there was something wrong with me, but I was too immature to voice it.
-This afternoon, the Prince and Princess said farewell to BC.
They're going to Tokyo to begin a royal tour that includes
at least five 12-hour days.
Royal officials say there are no plans to change the schedule.
-Was anyone helpful about the press, generally?
-No, they were all running around.
They couldn't understand.
It was like sort of Marilyn Monroe publicity, you know.
She only had to click her heel and the whole world was at her feet.
It was very odd.
But I am never comfortable in it.
Never ever.
I was absolutely mesmerized by the whole thing.
I couldn't believe it.
-Diana, ah!
Please, please.
Please please please please please, Diana.
Come on, this will make my day, my life.
DIANA: They all thought, "Oh, she's got lots of press, she must be doing all right."
But that summer, I sat myself down in Scotland, and I remember saying to myself,
all right, Diana.
It's not good.
You've got to change it right round, this publicity.
I remember my conversation so well, sitting by water.
I always sit by water when contemplating.
You've got to grow up.
You've got to be responsible.
You've got to understand that you can't do what other 26, 27-year-olds are doing.
You've chosen to do a position, so you must adapt to it and stop fighting it.
And I knew I could do it if I chose a different angle.
-The Princess of Wales felt not the slightest apprehension about her visit
to the Middlesex Hospital and its AIDS ward.
All the speculation had centered on whether she would wear gloves when
shaking hands with the staff and patients.
DIANA: I'd always wanted to hug people in hospital beds, and this particular man
was so ill, so I thought, right, Diana, do it.
Go on, just do it.
And I gave him an enormous hug, and it was just so touching because he clung to
me and he cried, and it was wonderful, it made him laugh.
-In Britain, the public's obsession with the royal family has reached new heights
or lows, depending on how you look at it.
The cause of the latest flurry of excitement is the rumor that
Prince Charles and Princess Diana may be on the verge of ending their marriage.
But whatever problems they may be having, says Andrew Morton,
royal reporter for the British newspaper The Star,
there's no chance the two will get divorced.
MORTON (over phone): They're as much likely to get divorced as I am to get pregnant.
I would stake my life on the fact that they would never ever ever divorce.
-24 hours before the royal visit, parts of Carmarthen were still
under several feet of water.
Today, the floods had subsided, as the lengthy job of clearing up was underway.
DIANA: One of the worst things to ever happen was when we went to Wales after the flooding,
and there'd been a tremendous amount of press about us being apart.
And I burst into tears when he got in the plane, and he said, "Oh, God, what's the matter?"
And I said, "I've had a very bad time with the press."
Because they had literally haunted me or hunted me, and he said,
"Well, if you were in your right place, none of this would have happened,"
indicating that I should be up in Scotland.
It was a real cry for help.
I wasn't just blubbing because I just turned the taps on;
it was just desperation.
-It's only the couple's second public appearance together in over a month.
But tomorrow, they'll go their separate ways again.
The princess stays in London.
Prince Charles goes to Scotland.
DIANA: I said, "I choose to work because that's my role in life."
-What do you think woke you up?
-I think the bulimia, actually.
I suddenly realized what I was going to lose if I let go, and was it worth losing.
So that's how I got involved with the shrink called Dr. Lipsedge.
Walked in, he said, how many times have you tried to do yourself in?
And I thought, I don't believe this question.
So I heard myself say, "Four times."
He asked all these questions, and I was able to be completely honest.
He said, "I'm gonna come and see you once a week for now,
and we're just going to talk it through.
He said, "There's nothing wrong with you."
And when he said that, a door opened.
I thought, well, maybe it's not me.
And he helped me get back my self-esteem.
-For the first formal dinner of the visit, the Princess unveiled another new look,
her worn up with a tiara that clearly won the approval of state president Von Viesecker.
The cameras were concentrating on the princess.
Interest in her clothes replacing speculation about the royal marriage.
And she seemed relaxed enough to respond in an informal manner when one
photographer complimented her hairstyle.
-Your hair looks nice. -Looks all right?
One of the bravest moments of my entire ten years was when we went to this ghastly party,
a 40th birthday party for Camilla's sister, and nobody expected me to turn up.
But, again, a voice inside me said just go for the hell of it.
So I psyched myself up something awful.
I decided that I wasn't going to kiss Camilla hello anymore,
I was going to shake hands with her.
This was my big step.
Well, he needled me the whole way down to Ham Common, trying to bait me.
"Why are you coming tonight?"
Needle, needle, needle, the whole way down.
I didn't bite, but I was very, very on edge.
I walk into the house and stick my hand out to Camilla the first time,
and think phew, got over that.
We were all upstairs and I was chatting away, and I suddenly noticed that
there was no Camilla and no Charles upstairs.
So this disturbs me.
So I make my way to go downstairs again.
I know what I'm going to confront myself with.
They tried and stop me from going downstairs.
"Diana, don't go down there."
"I'm just going to go find my husband."
I go downstairs, and there's a very happy little threesome going on downstairs,
Camilla, Charles, and some other man whom I don't, who I didn't know, chatting away.
So I thought, all right, this is your moment, so I went and sat down,
joined in the conversation as though, you know, we were all best friends.
And I said, "Camilla, I'd love to have a word with you, if possible."
And she got really uncomfortable, put her head down and she said,
"Oh yes, all right."
And I said to the two men, "Ok, boys.
I'm just gonna have a quick word with Camilla, and I'll be up in a minute."
And they shot upstairs, like chickens with no heads.
And I could feel, upstairs, all hell breaking loose.
"What is she going to do?"
So I said, "Camilla, would you like to sit down?"
So we sat down and I was, I mean, terrified of her.
And I said, "Camilla, I'd just like you to know that I know exactly what's going on."
And she said, "I don't know what you're talking about."
And I said, "I know what's going on between you and Charles,
and I just want you to know that."
And she said to me, very interesting, she said to me,
"You've got everything you've ever wanted.
You've got all the men in the world falling in love with you,
you've got two beautiful children.
What more would you want?"
And I didn't believe what she said anyway.
So I said, "I want my husband."
And she said, "Well," and she looked down the whole time, like this.
And I said to Camilla, "I'm sorry I'm in the way.
I obviously am in the way, and it must be hell for both of you.
But I do know what's going on.
Don't treat me like an idiot."
And in the car on the way back, my husband was over me like a bad rash.
I cried like I've never cried before.
It was anger.
It was seven years of pent up anger coming out.
I cried and cried and cried.
I didn't sleep that night.
And the next morning I woke up and I felt different, a shift, a tremendous shift.
I'd done something, said what I felt.
It was still the old jealousy and the anger swilling around, but it wasn't so,
it wasn't so deathly as it'd been before.
And I said to him, at the weekend, three days later, "Oh, darling,
I'm sure you'll want to know what I said to Camilla.
There's no secret.
You may ask her.
I just said I loved you and there's nothing wrong in that.
-Six, seven, eight, nine, ten.
One, two, three, four, five.
Thought you might be interested.
DIANA: Oh, nice.
-Some quite interesting bits and pieces in there.
Now, what's he got down here?
Questions, here we are.
-What have been the turning moments in life that turned you from victim to victor?
-Wow, love the way he says that.
Gosh, can't remember what triggered it off.
I supposed last summer when Sam cut my hair differently it let out
something quite different.
And when my bulimia finished two years ago I suddenly felt so much stronger mentally
and physically so I was able to soldier on.
♪ ♪
(crowd talking).
I've got what my mother's got where, however bloody you're feeling,
you can put on the most amazing show of happiness.
But what I couldn't cope in those dark ages was people saying it's her fault,
and I got that from everywhere.
Everywhere.
-Within?
-The system, and media starting to say it was my fault,
that I was the Marilyn Monroe of the 1980s and that I was adoring it.
I've never ever sat down and said hooray, how wonderful.
Never.
Because the day I do that, we're in trouble.
I am performing a duty as the Princess of Wales, as my time is allocated,
and if I go anywhere, if I go somewhere else, if life changes, it changes,
but at least when I finish my, what I see as my 12 or 15 years as the Princess of Wales,
I don't see it as any longer, funny enough.
I know when I turn my light off at night, I did my best.
I always knew I'd never be the next queen, put it that way.
And no one said that to me.
I just knew it.
-A very what, Your Royal Highness?
-Healing experience.
-In what way?
-You work that out for yourself.
-A wiser prince than I would've opted for a visit to the Taj Mahal,
and the Red Fort at Agra, which I believe is where, some at least of the greatest
pundits of the press think I ought to be anyway,
rather than making a greater fool of myself here.
♪ ♪
-As the Princess of Wales delivered Prince Harry to his school this morning,
the author of the book which claims to expose the real state of her marriage,
says he left very strong material out of his account because it would have revealed
the identity of several key sources.
The book, due to go on sale tomorrow, claims she made several attempts on her life.
Not serious attempts, but what it says were desperate cries for help.
The author, Andrew Morton, insisted today that close friends of the Princess stand
by the integrity of the book.
And he came on ITN's lunchtime news to make his first live defense
of the book on television.
-The motivation was to tell the truth.
For once, forget the propaganda, tell the truth about what's really going on,
because we do face a crisis in the House of Windsor.
It's obvious to everyone.
-And make you, and make you a rich man.
-If that's a corollary, then so be it.
But hopefully, people, it struck a nerve because it is true.
It is a true story.
It's a sympathetic account of her life.
-We are not in the business of hyping publications was the
only comment from Buckingham Palace this morning.
Palace officials refused to comment on whether they had a copy of the book,
or whether the top libel lawyers were examining the text.
The secrecy surrounding one of the most publicized books ever is remarkable.
The bookshops have been straining at the bit for a glimpse of what is arguably
the most talked-about book of all time.
The hype behind this book is virtually unprecedented, but,
according to Andrew Morton, the story stands up.
He says Diana is a victim who became a princess before she became a woman,
and as a result she hit what she herself called the dark ages.
-The book serialized in the Sunday Times today claims it was the Prince's indifference
to his wife that caused her chronic depression and five separate suicide attempts.
At the Queen's Cup polo tournament in Windsorgate Park this afternoon,
all attention was on Camilla Parker-Bowles, a long-time friend of Prince Charles,
a relationship which the book claims sparked off jealousy in the princess.
-Buckingham Palace officials have denied once again today that the Princess of Wales
cooperated in way with the book,
and refuses to dignify its claims with any further comments.
But the repercussions are continuing.
-And what about the role of Prince Charles in this rather sad, if you say, cry for help.
DEMPSTER (over phone): I think that Prince Charles has a tremendous responsibility
towards the Princess of Wales, and I think that Prince Charles
is very sad at what has happened to the marriage,
and he's even sadder that the Princess should have seen fit to air
the problems in the marriage so publicly.
JUNOR (over phone): I am trying to bring some balance to this whole story.
I think that we've had nothing but Diana's misery and Diana's loneliness
and Diana's side of the story.
We've heard her say how Charles is a bad father, how he's a bad husband,
he's uncaring, he drove her to suicide attempts,
and I think the time has simply come to adjust the balance.
Prince Charles is not a cold man.
He is not an uncaring man.
The fact of the matter is that because of Diana's illness everything
has built up in her mind.
She has created situations, she has imagined situations.
BROKAW: Charles and Diana's storybook wedding has collapsed into
a royal embarrassment.
Separate lives, public scrutiny, whispers of infidelity.
And there were signs today that it was all getting to be too much for the princess.
-Royal composure collapsed as Princes Diana, under extraordinary media attention,
broke down in tears, red faced and confused.
This was a side of the princess never seen in public.
-In all that you do, you reflect so very sincerely the philosophy
of tender loving care, which is and always will be the hallmark of this hospice.
-Diana appeared near tears in her first public engagement since a book
detailing her unhappiness was published last week.
COURIC: It began as a royal romance, but quickly faded.
Britain's Prince Charles and Lady Diana.
In the latter years, a troubled marriage and mostly separate lives.
She reportedly described it as a loveless misalliance.
Well, today, official word, the union is over.
-The couple will continue to carrying out separate engagements and duties.
The Princess of Wales has already done much to establish herself as a solo operator.
-Whether or not the Princess of Wales will become Queen may finally be decided
by Queen Elizabeth herself when she chooses to abdicate.
-A lot of people would question whether she's entitled to wear the crown.
And it's very important for us that the dignity and the stature of
the monarchy is protected, and I think that might well reduce it,
rather than enhance it.
DIANA: If I was able to write my own script, I would say that I would hope that my husband
would go off with his lady and sort that out, and leave me and the children
to carry the Wales name through to the time when William ascends the throne.
And I'd be behind him all the way.
And I can do this job so much better on my own.
I don't feel trapped.
♪ ♪
-Ladies and gentlemen, Her Royal Highness, the Princess of Wales,
would like to make a short statement.
Your Royal Highness.
(applause)
-When I started my public life twelve years ago,
I understood the media might be interested in what I did.
I realized then their attention would inevitably focus on both our private and
public lives.
But I was not aware of how overwhelming that attention would become.
At the end of this year, when I've completed my diary of official engagements,
I will be reducing the extent of the public life I've led so far.
My first priority will continue to be our children, William and Harry,
who deserve as much love and care and attention as I am able to give.
I couldn't stand here today and make this sort of statement without
acknowledging the heartfelt support I've been given by the public in general.
Your kindness and affection has carried me through some of the most difficult periods.
And always your love and care has eased that journey.
And for that, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
(applause)
♪ ♪
-Amid the chaos of Luanda Airport, a scheduled flight at the start
of an unofficial visit for the newest and most high profile Red Cross volunteer.
For the first time on her own, stepping out into the third world,
reunited with the charity she deserted before her divorce from Prince Charles.
-It's an enormous privilege for me to have been invited here to Angola in
order to assist the Red Cross in its campaign to ban, once and for all,
anti-personnel landmines.
-Has the reality of Angola been more shocking than you expected.
-Yes, I knew the statistics,
but putting a face to those figures brought the reality home to me.
Like when I met Sandra, the 13-year-old girl, two days ago, who had lost her leg,
for people like her, the rest of her life will be very different.
But we must stop the landmines if we can.
-Can we ask you to ask that question about your political role?
-I would've thought that was the most important question out of the two.
I'd go for that one.
-What, the political one?
-No, no, I mean the one saying I'm not a political figure.
-Were you surprised at the political fury that came out as a result
of your visit here to Angola?
-It was merely a distraction, and the fact is I'm a humanitarian figure,
not one who is a political, political, sorry, can we do that again?
-Sure.
Were you surprised at the political fury that developed as a result
of your visit to Angola?
-I saw it merely as a distraction because I'm not a political figure,
I am a humanitarian figure, and always have been and always will be.
-It is not the horror of landmines that is making the headlines back home,
but reports of the princess's romance with Dodi Fayed.
DIANA: I see myself one day living abroad.
And you once said to me, last August, you said to me,
you're going to marry somebody who's foreign, or got a lot of foreign blood in them.
I thought it was always interesting, that.
-Confirmation of Princess Diana's first serious romance since her split with Charles
will be shown in London's Sunday Mirror tomorrow.
Paparazzi photographer Mario Brenna is said to become a millionaire
from worldwide sales of the shots.
-She wants this romance on the record, and this is a story that's going to run
and run until something wonderful or something ghastly happens.
COLTHURST: Are you optimistic about the future?
DIANA: I have been positive about it for some time,
though obviously there's endless question marks.
♪ ♪
Be quite nice to go and do things like a weekend in Paris,
but I know one day,
if I play the game of life, I will be able to have those things which
I've always pined for, and they'll be that much more special because
I'll be that much more older, and be able to appreciate them that much more.
♪ ♪
(sirens)
-We interrupt this film to tell you we are getting reports that Diana,
Princess of Wales has been badly injured in a car crash in France.
-Stephen Jessel, our correspondent in Paris, what is you view of what is now
happening at the hospital.
JESSEL: Well, I'm, I'm worried by the lack of any news or the lack of any statement.
One wonders if one is being told the whole truth at the moment.
-One's heart goes out, especially to the young princes, William and Harry.
-William and Harry, indeed.
William, let's remind ourselves, he, particularly close to his mother,
he very sensitive young man, hates photographers.
ANNOUNCER: This is the IRN News Desk.
This message is, I repeat, is not for public broadcast.
Diana, Princess of Wales, has died.
-I know that these pictures are being beamed around the world and maybe people in some
parts of the world will think this is quite a normal scene.
Little do they know.
In America, I know for a fact, people have got up early to watch
live transmissions from London.
In the far East where it's, well, well into the day now, late afternoon,
early evening, they're sitting watching.
Television schedules have been cleared around the world.
This is an extraordinary view we're seeing here.
We've never, as far as I'm aware, seen the royal family standing like this at the
gates of Buckingham Palace.
Could they be intending to walk behind the coffin?
Anything is possible today.
The word Diana on a huge banner on the gate.
And no one said that mustn't be there, you don't put posters or banners on the
gates of Buckingham Palace.
"Diana of Love."
Prince William, Earl Spencer, Prince Harry, and the Prince of Wales.
An almost intolerable moment for the two boys, the two princes.
Impossible to put into words
as they take their place behind their mother's coffin.
-Of all the ironies about Diana, perhaps the greatest was this:
a girl given the name of the ancient goddess of hunting was, in the end,
the most hunted person of the modern age.
She would want us, today, to pledge ourselves to protecting her beloved boys,
William and Harry, from a similar fate, and I do this here, Diana, on your behalf.
Diana was the very essence of compassion, of duty, of style, of beauty.
All over the world, she was symbol of selfless humanity,
a standard-bearer for the rights of the truly downtrodden.
Someone with a natural nobility who was classless, and who proved in the last
year that she needed no royal title to continue to generate her particular brand of magic.
There is no doubt that she was looking for a new direction in her life at this time.
She talked endlessly of getting away from England, mainly because of the
treatment she received at the hands of the newspapers.
I don't think she ever understood why her genuinely good intentions were sneered
at by the media, why there appeared to be a permanent quest on their
behalf to bring her down.
Above all, we give thanks for the life of a woman I'm so proud to be able to
call my sister, the unique, the complex, the extraordinary and irreplaceable Diana,
whose beauty both internal and external will never be extinguished from our minds.
♪ ♪
-She affected everybody and that's everyone's way of showing it.
Laying their flowers and writing their cards and their poems.
It's just amazing.
That she'll never know, how much she meant to everybody, really.
-She was just so human, she made so many mistakes and just exactly like we do.
And yet she shone through it.
DIANA: The public side was very different obviously from the private side.
The public side, they wanted a fairy princess.
Touch them and everything will turn into gold and all their worries would be forgotten.
Little did they realize that the individual was crucifying herself inside.
Because she didn't think she was good enough.
"Why me, why all this publicity?"
♪ ♪
I remember when I first arrived on the scene, I always put my head down.
Now from my point of view, I interpret it, yes, it did look sulky.
Just so frightened of the attention I was getting.
Head down.
Bit I can remember is that I didn't want to do anything on my own.
I was too frightened, I mean the thought of meeting anyone on my own sent tremors.
So I stuck with whatever Charles did.
If it included a wife, I went with him, all the way, wherever.
I was just so desperate.
I knew what was wrong with me, but nobody else around me understood me.
I needed rest and to be looked after inside my house and for people to understand the
torment and the anguish going on in my head.
Because I had a smile on my face and everybody thought I was having a wonderful time.
That's what they chose to think and they were happier thinking that.
It didn't get easier.
I just got used to what people required from the Princess of Wales.
What Diana thought wasn't going to come into it yet.
History fascinated me.
But I never anticipated I'd end up in the system, in the books.
-Would you leave the format of the monarchy as it is now or would you alter it for him?
-I am altering it for him, but in a subtle way.
People aren't aware of it, but I am.
Through William learning what I do, and his father to a certain extent,
he has got an inside look at what's coming his way.
He's not hidden upstairs with a governess.
-What would you say your greatest achievement has been?
-To not bow down to pressure, you know, not let all this chat disturb me.
Took me six years to get comfortable in this skin.
And now, I'm ready to go forward.
I hug my children to death.
I get into bed with them at night and hug them, and I always say,
"Who loves you most in the whole wide world?"
And they always say, "Mommy."
It's always that, always feed them.
It's so important.
-Did you have any expectations looking forwards?
-I had so many dreams as a young girl.
Hopes that my husband would look after me, that he'd be like a father figure.
He'd support me, encourage me, say, "Well done," or say, "No, it wasn't good enough."
I knew somehow I had to keep myself very tidy for whatever was coming my way.
I was always different.
I had always this thing inside me that I was going somewhere different.
I didn't know why, I couldn't even talk about.
-Do you remember the moment you fell in love?
-No, it was gradual.
It wasn't anything dramatic.
One blink and it would have gone, yes.
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